{"id":281,"date":"2016-05-13T11:05:08","date_gmt":"2016-05-13T09:05:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=281"},"modified":"2021-07-06T22:10:33","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T19:10:33","slug":"negaliu-atsikratyti-minciu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/2016\/negaliu-atsikratyti-minciu\/","title":{"rendered":"Balad\u0117 d\u017eiaugsmui V: Kai negaliu atsikratyti min\u010di\u0173."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Scena: <\/strong>ra\u0161yta 9 dienos po i\u0161va\u017eiavus\u00a0erasmus studijoms \u012f \u010cekij\u0105.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">* * *<\/p>\n<p>* Danielius staiga nubunda. Prasimerkia, atsis\u0117da, pakrato galv\u0105.*<\/p>\n<p>* \u201eV\u0117l&#8230;\u201c, sumurma po nosimi jis. *<\/p>\n<p>* Danielius atsisuka \u012f \u017ei\u016brov\u0105, spragtel\u0117damas pir\u0161tais magi\u0161kai u\u017esideda lengvas kelnes ir paprastus m\u0117lynos spalvos mar\u0161kin\u0117lius, pris\u0117da prie kompiuterio ir pradeda ra\u0161yti. *<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>Ei, tu. Taip, tu \u2013 panele i\u0161 mano sapn\u0173.<\/p>\n<p>Kas per \u017emogus manai esanti?<\/p>\n<p>Manai, jog esi ka\u017ekokia galaktikos karalien\u0117? Kad gali daryti k\u0105 panor\u0117jusi?<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Tiesiog imti ir \u012fsibrauti \u012f mano sapnus? J\u0117ga \u012fsiver\u017eti \u012f mintis labiausiai netik\u0117tose vietose? Priva\u010diausiose erdv\u0117se?<\/p>\n<p>(Ar tav\u0119s niekas nemok\u0117 ger\u0173 manier\u0173?)<\/p>\n<p>Panele, pra\u0161au liautis darius tai k\u0105 darai. Ne\u017einau, tai vudu magijos, neuropsichologijos ar \u0161\u0117tono darbas, bet man tai jau nebepatinka.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Nes argi gra\u017eu taip daryti?<\/p>\n<p>Jau tre\u010di\u0105 nakt\u012f sapnuoju tave. Jau ketvirt\u0105 dien\u0105 pastebiu merginas, pana\u0161ias \u012f tave. Jau penkt\u0105 dien\u0105 pastebiu vietas ir dalykus, kuriuos nor\u0117\u010diau parodyti tau. Ir jau \u0161e\u0161t\u0105 dien\u0105 trok\u0161tu v\u0117l prisiliesti prie tavo plauk\u0173 ir taip sukelti tau elektros \u0161ok\u0105.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Devint\u0105 dien\u0105 tu man nei\u0161krenti i\u0161 galvos.<\/li>\n<li>&#8230;Nors kit\u0173 min\u010di\u0173 joje, rodos, turiu daugiau, nei telpa.<\/li>\n<li>&#8230;Nors jau savait\u0119 gyvenu beproti\u0161k\u0105 gyvenim\u0105 naujoje \u0161alyje, su naujais \u017emon\u0117mis ir naujais beproti\u0161kais i\u0161\u0161\u016bkiais.<\/li>\n<li>&#8230;Nors paskutin\u012f kart\u0105 susitikome prie\u0161 visas devynias ar de\u0161imt dien\u0173.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Kaip tai suprasti?<\/p>\n<p>Kod\u0117l g\u0117l\u0117tas d\u0117stytojos sijonas primena tave? Kod\u0117l grojant pavasari\u0161kai, gyvybingai muzikai (kaip ir \u0161i\u0105 akimirk\u0105) prisimenu tave? Kod\u0117l gal\u0173 gale net sutikto Al\u017eyrie\u010dio pranc\u016bzo nosis primin\u0117 tavo ma\u017e\u0105j\u012f, \u017eav\u0173j\u012f kv\u0117pavimo padarg\u0105?<\/p>\n<p>Prisiekiu \u2013 jei prisimin\u010diau tavo juoko skambes\u012f, turb\u016bt ir j\u012f visur gird\u0117\u010diau.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>A\u010di\u016b Dievui, kad to negird\u017eiu.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Kod\u0117l?<\/p>\n<p>Paprasta \u2013 jei gird\u0117\u010diau, turb\u016bt visi\u0161kai i\u0161ei\u010diau i\u0161 proto. Jau dabar esu netoli to \u2013 juk sutikau tave vos du kartus (o bu\u010diavau vien\u0105), ta\u010diau vis to neu\u017emir\u0161tu. O galutinai d\u0117l tav\u0119s i\u0161prot\u0117ti visai nenoriu.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Tik ne tuomet, kai pra\u0117jus vos 9 dienoms i\u0161 99 (taip, paskai\u010diavau) dedasi VISA TAI!<\/p>\n<p>Ne, man tai n\u0117ra mil\u017eini\u0161kas skaudulys. Skausmo d\u0117l to, kad tave prisimenu, nejau\u010diu.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Ta\u010diau bijau tik vieno \u2013 perdegti iki tuomet, kai gr\u012f\u0161iu.<\/p>\n<p>O kai taip kankina nesibaigian\u010dios mintys, perdegti tikrai \u012fmanoma. Tikiuosi, kad bent jau tu apie mane negalvoji kas antr\u0105 dien\u0105&#8230; \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n<p>Taigi pra\u0161au tav\u0119s, panele:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Kad ir kokia magija u\u017esiimi, liaukis. Bent jau iki to meto, kai gr\u012f\u0161iu.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>O kai gr\u012f\u0161iu, gal\u0117siu tave apkabinti, pabu\u010diuoti, nusivesti \u012f atrakcion\u0173 park\u0105, o v\u0117liau kartu skaityti knygas \u2013 tuomet gal\u0117si t\u0119sti, k\u0105 prad\u0117jai.<\/p>\n<p>Bet dar ne dabar. Dar ne dabar.<\/p>\n<p>Tik ne taip smarkiai.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>* Danielius lengvai atsid\u016bsta \u017evelgdamas \u012f para\u0161yt\u0105 lai\u0161k\u0105. Tuomet atsikelia nuo ked\u0117s, prie spintos persirengia patogesniais drabu\u017eiais ir i\u0161skuba \u012f susitikim\u0105 su naujais pa\u017e\u012fstamais *<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Scena: <\/strong>ra\u0161yta 9 dienos po i\u0161va\u017eiavus\u00a0erasmus studijoms \u012f \u010cekij\u0105.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":14465,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[89,69],"class_list":{"0":"post-281","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-laiskai","8":"tag-balade-dziaugsmui","9":"tag-meile"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=281"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14465"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=281"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=281"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=281"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}