{"id":679,"date":"2016-11-26T19:00:21","date_gmt":"2016-11-26T17:00:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=679"},"modified":"2021-07-06T22:11:21","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T19:11:21","slug":"klausimai-kuriu-negaliu-neklausti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2016\/jautajumi-ko-nevaru-neuzdot\/","title":{"rendered":"[M\u012blest\u012bbas v\u0113stule] Jaut\u0101jumi, kurus es nevaru jums uzdot"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 183 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 1026<\/b>. Foto autors: Vi Kontrimait\u0117<\/a><\/p>\n

Cit\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b es biju iem\u012bl\u0113jusies cit\u0101 meiten\u0113. Takia Iveta, juveliere no Til\u017e\u0117s pils\u0113tas. \u0160o v\u0113stuli veltu vi\u0146ai, atceroties dienas un naktis, ko pavad\u012bju vi\u0146u gaidot.<\/span><\/p>\n

Starp citu:\u00a0<\/strong>Rakst\u012bju \u0161o v\u0113stuli visu dienu da\u017e\u0101d\u0101s Kau\u0146as viet\u0101s. Es vienm\u0113r main\u012bju savu rakst\u012b\u0161anas poz\u012bciju atbilsto\u0161i tam, kur\u0101 taj\u0101 laik\u0101 s\u0113d\u0113ju.<\/p>\n

Un izlasi visu v\u0113stuli l\u012bdz galam \u2013 t\u0101 ir speci\u0101li uzrakst\u012bta t\u0101d\u0101 d\u012bvain\u0101 veid\u0101. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

* * *\u00a0* * *\u00a0* * *<\/p>\n

~ Apsk\u0101vieni.<\/p>\n

~ Uzrakst\u012bts m\u016bsu Kunga Kristus divi t\u016bksto\u0161i piecpadsmit gadu astotaj\u0101 m\u0113nes\u012b, m\u0113ne\u0161a divdesmitaj\u0101 dien\u0101. Jaun\u0101 m\u0113ness period\u0101. Sien\u0101\u017eu gad\u0101, vi\u0146u dz\u012bves ceturtaj\u0101 desmitgad\u0113.<\/p>\n

~ \u0160eit bija diena no Dani\u0113la laikiem.<\/p>\n

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J\u016bs to dro\u0161i vien sauktu par m\u0101j\u012bgumu. Ak j\u0101. Gr\u0101matas. Kafija. Silts spilvena p\u0101rvalks, auksts \u0101ra gaiss, m\u016bzika un dators.<\/p>\n

Bet par ko es run\u0101ju?<\/p>\n

Piem\u0113ram, es reiz pajaut\u0101ju baristai, kura ir vi\u0146as m\u012b\u013c\u0101k\u0101 gr\u0101mata, un vi\u0146a mani p\u0101rsteidza ar Ernesta Marijas Remarka gr\u0101matu Melnais obelisks. Papras\u012bjusi kafiju atbilsto\u0161i atbildei, vi\u0146a man pagatavoja vienk\u0101r\u0161u melnu kafiju.<\/p>\n

\u2026Vai zin\u0101j\u0101t, ka, ejot uz kafejn\u012bc\u0101m, es nepas\u016btu kafiju parastaj\u0101 veid\u0101, bet uzdodu barist\u0101m d\u012bvainu jaut\u0101jumu un saku, lai vi\u0146i taisa kafiju atbilsto\u0161i tam, k\u0101 atbilde asoci\u0113jas ar kafiju?<\/p>\n

Varb\u016bt tas ir maz\u0101k st\u0101sts un vair\u0101k jaut\u0101jumu kopums, lai t\u0101diem cilv\u0113kiem k\u0101 es sniegtu v\u0113l vair\u0101k ideju par to, ko jaut\u0101t.<\/p>\n

\u0160ajos Ziemassv\u0113tkos sa\u0146\u0113mu gr\u0101matu no drauga, man \u0161\u0137iet, ka t\u0101 saucas V\u0113traina nakts vai kaut kas taml\u012bdz\u012bgs. Tas ir st\u0101sts par mazu meiteni un vi\u0146as suni (bet vair\u0101k par meiteni), kur\u0161 uzdod tik daudz jaut\u0101jumu. Par sevi. Par pasauli. Par tavu suni. Par visu.<\/p>\n

(Un j\u0101, es to saprotu, \u0161is ir v\u0113l viens jaut\u0101jums papildus daudziem jaut\u0101jumiem. \ud83d\ude00 )<\/p>\n

Bet ak. Piedod man. Vai es prasu p\u0101r\u0101k daudz?<\/p>\n

Un ko tu gribi no dz\u012bves? Vai j\u016bsu v\u0113lmes ir lielas? Vai varb\u016bt j\u016bs vienk\u0101r\u0161i v\u0113laties mieru?<\/p>\n

Citos gad\u012bjumos es nedaudz cie\u0161u, bet tad atkal k\u013c\u016bstu apmierin\u0101ts.<\/p>\n

Pirmajos gad\u012bjumos steidzos dar\u012bt ko pavisam jaunu un negaid\u012btu. Es bie\u017ei to nepabeidzu un atst\u0101ju uz nezin\u0101mu laiku.<\/p>\n

T\u0101dos br\u012b\u017eos es parasti gribu vai nu dar\u012bt kaut ko traku un apmierin\u0101t savu vajadz\u012bbu dar\u012bt kaut ko, ak-dievs-tik for\u0161i-baroties-Facebook-un-piev\u0113rst-uzman\u012bbu, vai ar\u012b nomierin\u0101ties un pie\u0146emt to. man ir.<\/p>\n

Laikam tu zini to saj\u016btu, kad \u0161\u0137iet, ka visa, ko dari, ir par maz un tu vari no sevis izspiest vair\u0101k, vai ne?<\/p>\n

\u0160odien bija laba diena. Tikai varb\u016bt nedaudz l\u0113ni. Es tikai tagad beidzu rakstu (vai bija pirms es atkal uzrakst\u012bju jums \u0161o v\u0113stuli), Zoss kustas \u013coti l\u0113ni, un man atkal \u0161\u0137iet, ka es sasniedzu un daru p\u0101r\u0101k maz.<\/p>\n

Aukstais vakara gaiss, vai varb\u016bt ir gandr\u012bz nakts, p\u016b\u0161 cauri atv\u0113rtajam balkonam un laiza manas k\u0101jas. Mugura, kas atbalst\u012bta pret spilvenu-segu un sienu aiz vi\u0146as-vi\u0146a, joproj\u0101m ir diezgan silta.<\/p>\n

Ir jau vakars. Atkal Spotify. Bet tagad m\u0101j\u0101s.<\/p>\n

Sveiks atkal!<\/p>\n

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~ Pirmaj\u0101 st\u0101v\u0101 k\u0101da meitene (vai varb\u016bt puika? Gr\u016bti pateikt, bet at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bba ir maza) velk t\u0113ti aiz rokas un atk\u0101rto "T\u0113t, ejam". Tas ir fascin\u0113jo\u0161i. Un to ir jautri skat\u012bties. ~<\/p>\n

Nu es papla\u0161in\u0101jos. Es ce\u013coju, lai rakst\u012btu rakstu. Un l\u012bdz n\u0101kamajai reizei!<\/p>\n

N\u0101kotn\u0113 man par to b\u016bs j\u0101jaut\u0101 saviem vec\u0101kajiem guru. Un uzziniet, k\u0101 ir main\u012bjusies vi\u0146u dz\u012bve. Vai tas nav main\u012bjies? Apst\u0101j\u0101s vai neapst\u0101j\u0101s? Vai tas ir samazin\u0101jies vai piepild\u012bjies? Vai tas ir nostiprin\u0101jies vai papla\u0161in\u0101jies? Vai esat k\u013cuvis ekstr\u0113m\u0101ks vai dro\u0161\u0101ks?<\/p>\n

ES nezinu. Man ir interesanti dzird\u0113t j\u016bsu domas. Un k\u0101 tu dom\u0101?<\/p>\n

Vai varb\u016bt t\u0101 garlaic\u012bba pat nav slikta, jo p\u0113c k\u0101da laika dz\u012bve dabiski apst\u0101jas un vairs nav sp\u0113ka dar\u012bt ko jaunu, p\u0101rbaud\u012bt sevi un citus, m\u0101c\u012bties, augt un rad\u012bt?<\/p>\n

Interesanti, vai es t\u0101da k\u013c\u016b\u0161u, kad izveido\u0161u \u0123imeni? Vai varb\u016bt viss b\u016bs sav\u0101d\u0101k un daudz lab\u0101k?<\/p>\n

...Un cik d\u012bvaini: L\u016bk, nez k\u0101p\u0113c "\u0123imene" man\u0101 pr\u0101t\u0101 izklaus\u012bj\u0101s k\u0101 "garlaic\u012bga". Varb\u016bt t\u0101p\u0113c, ka vec\u0101ki p\u0113c apprec\u0113\u0161an\u0101s un divu jaunu jauktu b\u0113rnu rad\u012b\u0161anas pasaulei iedz\u012bvoj\u0101s un s\u0101ka dz\u012bvot diezgan garlaic\u012bgu dz\u012bvi?<\/p>\n

Man ir \u013coti d\u012bvaini rakst\u012bt jums tik vienk\u0101r\u0161u v\u0113stuli. Es ceru, ka jums tas nav p\u0101r\u0101k garlaic\u012bgi? Par daudz, k\u0101 to nosaukt, \u0123imene un garlaic\u012bgi?<\/p>\n

Un tad es turpin\u0101\u0161u rakst\u012bt savu rakstu, l\u012bdz ur\u012bnp\u016bslis neiztur\u0113s (vai ar\u012b pietr\u016bks paciet\u012bbas) un, sakrav\u0101jusies, do\u0161os uz universit\u0101tes bibliot\u0113ku un m\u0101j\u0101m.<\/p>\n

Dom\u0101, sap\u0146o.<\/p>\n

Vai \u0161odien velt\u012bji k\u0101du br\u012bdi pasap\u0146o\u0161anai?<\/p>\n

Zin\u0101tniskie p\u0113t\u012bjumi liecina, ka sap\u0146o\u0161ana un slinko\u0161ana ne tikai stimul\u0113 rado\u0161umu, dod sp\u0113ku, atsl\u0101bina \u0137ermeni un pr\u0101tu, bet ar\u012b (vai varb\u016bt t\u0101p\u0113c) pagarina m\u016b\u017eu.<\/p>\n

Nu ko tu j\u016bti? Ko tu dom\u0101? par ko tu sap\u0146o?<\/p>\n

Tas ir jauki. Bet tas ir labi.<\/p>\n

Es j\u016btu, ka atk\u0101rtojas.<\/p>\n

Bet man tas ir jauki. ES j\u016btos labi. Klavierm\u016bzika, kas skan no man\u0101m austi\u0146\u0101m, ir nomierino\u0161a un liek man justies labi. laipni. Da\u017ereiz es nezinu, k\u0101p\u0113c es iedzi\u013cinos t\u0101d\u0101s liet\u0101s. Nu, vismaz tagad es nezinu. \u0160is br\u012bdis.<\/p>\n

~ Pauze. \u0112nas kr\u012bt ar Random Forest. ~<\/p>\n

Pirmaj\u0101 st\u0101v\u0101 s\u0113do\u0161\u0101 bibliot\u0113kas darbinieku kol\u0113\u0123e p\u0101rbauda kases apar\u0101tu. Topo\u0161\u0101 kasiere izskat\u0101s laim\u012bga.<\/p>\n

~ Smaida ~<\/p>\n

Kas? K\u0101p\u0113c?<\/p>\n

Vai varb\u016bt nekad neko ne\u0146emt?<\/p>\n

Varb\u016bt lab\u0101k nedom\u0101t? \u0145emt visu p\u0113c k\u0101rtas?<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c es par to visp\u0101r dom\u0101ju?<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c?<\/p>\n

Ko es izv\u0113los?<\/p>\n

\u0160odien (vai p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101s 10 min\u016btes, kad rakstu \u0161o v\u0113stuli) \u0161is jaut\u0101jums ir bijis man\u0101 pr\u0101t\u0101. Tas negrie\u017eas, nekar\u0101jas, bet vienk\u0101r\u0161i kar\u0101jas. Fon\u0101. K\u0101 acis tam puisim otrpus bibliot\u0113kai - l\u016br no aiz sienas, neskat\u0101s uz mani, bet tur. Fon\u0101.<\/p>\n

K\u0101di cilv\u0113ki? K\u0101di priek\u0161meti? K\u0101das aktivit\u0101tes? K\u0101das ir pozas, lai s\u0113d\u0113tu un las\u012btu Dani\u0113la v\u0113stules? K\u0101das gr\u0101matas? K\u0101 smar\u017eo tualetes pap\u012brs? K\u0101das kr\u0101sas zobu birste? K\u0101das ir tavas domas par meiten\u0113m, kas bibliot\u0113k\u0101 iet tev gar\u0101m, nesot l\u012bdzi makaronus Iki\/Maxima plastmasas sal\u0101tu b\u013cod\u0101?<\/p>\n

ko tu izv\u0113lies<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c m\u0113s izv\u0113lamies to, ko izv\u0113lamies? Ko m\u0113s izv\u0113lamies? Ko tu izv\u0113lies? Ko es?<\/p>\n

\u0160odien es grib\u0113tu run\u0101t par izv\u0113l\u0113m.<\/p>\n

Tas esmu es. ES esmu. \u0160is br\u012bdis.<\/p>\n

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Varb\u016bt man vajadz\u0113tu uzz\u012bm\u0113t st\u0101stu par ka\u0137\u0113niem? Un k\u0101 vi\u0146i paties\u012bb\u0101 ir ceturt\u0101 sevi apzino\u0161\u0101 suga uz zemes, kas intelekta zi\u0146\u0101 p\u0101rsp\u0113j cilv\u0113kus?<\/p>\n

Starp citu, \u0161odien es no jauna atv\u0113ru v\u0113l vienu no saviem iecien\u012bt\u0101kajiem komiksiem. Un l\u016bk, ko tas iemeta, kad es noklik\u0161\u0137in\u0101ju uz "nejau\u0161i": Nodarb\u012bba, k\u0101 uzz\u012bm\u0113t ka\u0137\u0113nus.<\/a><\/p>\n

Pa ce\u013cam uz bibliot\u0113ku izdom\u0101ju, ka var\u0113tu m\u0113\u0123in\u0101t z\u012bm\u0113t. T\u012bmek\u013ca komikss. K\u0101 b\u016btu ar st\u0101stu par ma\u0123iju, j\u016bt\u0101m, bail\u0113m, psiholo\u0123iju un\/vai taml\u012bdz\u012bgi. T\u0101pat k\u0101 tas komikss, kuru es jums piemin\u0113ju, bet nepateicu prec\u012bzi.<\/p>\n

Starp citu, man patika. Bet tas dro\u0161i vien ir ac\u012bmredzams.<\/p>\n

\u0160odien ir d\u012bvaina diena. Slinks Lai gan \u0161odien ar\u012b ceturtdiena, tas laikam t\u0101p\u0113c, ka piec\u0113los tikai p\u0113c devi\u0146iem \u2013 vakar ar tevi pap\u013c\u0101p\u0101ju l\u012bdz pusdiviem. C:<\/p>\n

Bibliot\u0113ka, 14:02, Spotify atska\u0146o Tracey Chattawa Shimmer, un man tas pat\u012bk. \u0160odien ir silta diena, t\u0101p\u0113c esmu uzvilkusi \u0161ortus un gredzenu uz savas m\u012b\u013c\u0101s maz\u0101s kreis\u0101s rokas. Gredzens ir t\u0101p\u0113c, ka es to n\u0113s\u0101ju uz rokas jau sen. ES to palaidu gar\u0101m.<\/p>\n

~ N\u0101kamaj\u0101 dien\u0101 ~<\/p>\n

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~ \u0160eit bija tr\u012bs rindkopas. Tie tiek dz\u0113sti. Es neatceros, k\u0101p\u0113c. ~<\/p>\n

\u0160obr\u012bd es s\u0113\u017eu uz jau sakl\u0101tas gultas. Pa balkona durv\u012bm iepl\u016bst pat\u012bkami aukstais r\u012bta gaiss, datora ska\u013cru\u0146i sp\u0113l\u0113 Spotify ar Timeless Morning Rhythms, un v\u0113der\u0101 ir pat\u012bkams tuk\u0161ums. Es v\u0113l neesmu pa\u0113dusi brokastis.<\/p>\n

T\u0101tad j\u016bs sak\u0101t, ka v\u0113laties las\u012bt v\u0113stules no beig\u0101m, vai ne? L\u016bk, jums! \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

smaidot,
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