{"id":2852,"date":"2017-07-04T22:41:32","date_gmt":"2017-07-04T19:41:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=2852"},"modified":"2021-07-06T21:29:39","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T18:29:39","slug":"jai-miegant-salia","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2017\/vina-gul\/","title":{"rendered":"V\u0113stule meitenei, kam\u0113r vi\u0146a gu\u013c vi\u0146ai blakus"},"content":{"rendered":"<aside style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">1453 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>595<\/b>.<\/aside>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\"><span style=\"font-size: 1.15em;\">ko es j\u016btu<\/span><\/p>\n<p>\u0160aj\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b, kad mana draudzene gu\u013c man blakus, saritin\u0101jusies kamol\u0101, es m\u0113\u0123inu saprast, ko es j\u016btu.<\/p>\n<p>vai es vi\u0146u m\u012blu<\/p>\n<p>Vai varb\u016bt es vienk\u0101r\u0161i meloju sev, jo joproj\u0101m j\u016btu k\u0101das neskaidras \u0161aubas?<\/p>\n<p>ko es j\u016btu<\/p>\n<p>Tie\u0161i pirms br\u012b\u017ea izlas\u012bju vair\u0101kus rakstus, kuros bija teikts: Pats galvenais ir m\u012bl\u0113t sevi un r\u016bp\u0113ties par sevi; neuztraucieties par otru cilv\u0113ku; attiec\u012bbas rodas, kad citi to v\u0113las, nevis tu.<\/p>\n<p>Es atceros savas iepriek\u0161\u0113j\u0101s attiec\u012bbas.<\/p>\n<p>Drausm\u012bgas attiec\u012bbas. Varb\u016bt ne baisi, bet nedaudz l\u012bdz\u012bga \u2013 kalsna divdesmitgad\u012bga meitene, kura neprot izteikt savas domas un str\u012bdus risina klus\u0113jot. Meitene, par kuru es \u0161aubos, ir nobriedusi attiec\u012bb\u0101m. Tas, kur\u0161 ir tik p\u0101rsteidzo\u0161s uzman\u012bbas br\u012b\u017eos, un citos br\u012b\u017eos, es nezinu, k\u0101d\u0101s.<\/p>\n<p>L\u012bdz\u012bgi man.<\/p>\n<p>Es nezinu, Elena, man ir gr\u016bti.<\/p>\n<p>ES baidos.<br \/>\nEs uztraucos.<br \/>\nES nezinu.<\/p>\n<p>Es baidos, jo... Pala. Vai ne? \u2026Vai es baidos no str\u012bdiem, jo v\u0113los gl\u0101bt savu jauko dupsi? Dro\u0161i vien.<\/p>\n<p>Es uztraucos, jo es nezinu, k\u0101 tev iet, un tu tik bie\u017ei esi kluss. Galu gal\u0101 es tevi satiku k\u0101 to meiteni, kas daudz run\u0101, un k\u0101p\u0113c ir tik daudz klusuma?<\/p>\n<p>T\u0101 nav aps\u016bdz\u012bba, t\u0101 ir paties\u012bba. Tikai mulsino\u0161s jaut\u0101jums.<\/p>\n<p>Es nezinu, jo es nezinu, ko j\u016btu \u0161obr\u012bd.<\/p>\n<p>Prieks tevi v\u0113rot. Gu\u013cot, dzi\u013ci kr\u0101kt, acis ir aizv\u0113rtas un mute ir nedaudz va\u013c\u0101 \u2013 es redzu tavus baltos zobus.<\/p>\n<p>Ir pat\u012bkami apzin\u0101ties, ka esi man blakus: miesas, musku\u013cu, asi\u0146u, tauku un citu oglek\u013ca savienojumu kamols. Dz\u012bv\u012bbas forma, kas izskat\u0101s k\u0101 es.<\/p>\n<p>Ir pat\u012bkami atcer\u0113ties, kur m\u0113s esam l\u012bdz\u012bgi.<\/p>\n<p>Nezinu k\u0101p\u0113c, bet uztraucos par tavu vesel\u012bbu \u2013 man ir svar\u012bgi, lai tu b\u016btu vesels un laim\u012bgs.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0101p\u0113c tu uztraucies?<\/p>\n<p>es nezinu? T\u0101p\u0113c, ka tas ir jautri?<\/p>\n<p>Atvainojiet, manas domas joproj\u0101m ir sajuku\u0161as - redz, es nezinu, par ko es run\u0101ju.<\/p>\n<p>Un man vajadz\u0113tu las\u012bt vair\u0101k par \u0161o patm\u012bl\u012bbu.<\/p>\n<p>Varb\u016bt es par tevi r\u016bp\u0113jos p\u0101r\u0101k daudz? Varb\u016bt j\u0101samierin\u0101s un nosp\u013cauties, lab\u0101k par\u016bp\u0113ties par sevi un doties atpaka\u013c uz Kau\u0146u? Varb\u016bt \u0161\u012bs r\u016bpes \u017e\u0146audz ar\u012b j\u016bs?<\/p>\n<p>K\u0101p\u0113c es par tevi r\u016bp\u0113jos?<\/p>\n<p>Vai tas ir tikai t\u0101p\u0113c, ka tu esi burv\u012bga maza meitene un es esmu t\u0113ta-v\u012bra re\u017e\u012bm\u0101?<\/p>\n<p>Vai varb\u016bt t\u0101 ir t\u0101 briesm\u012bg\u0101 saj\u016bta, ko sauc par m\u012blest\u012bbu?<\/p>\n<p>(Es to rakstu ar mazajiem burtiem k\u0101 m\u0101jienu uz j\u016bsu tieksmi rakst\u012bt v\u0101rdus ar neparastiem burtiem.)<\/p>\n<p>*elsas*<\/p>\n<p>Man dro\u0161i vien j\u0101paaug. Sev\u012b, attiec\u012bb\u0101s un augt kop\u0101 ar tevi. Bet, iesp\u0113jams, liel\u0101k\u0101 da\u013ca ar domu, ka es j\u016bs tagad paz\u012bstu.<\/p>\n<p>Tas ir bied\u0113jo\u0161i. Viss, ko es tagad rakstu, ir bied\u0113jo\u0161s - t\u0101p\u0113c es to rakstu, kur es varu da\u017eus mirk\u013cus padom\u0101t par katru v\u0101rdu un tos netrauc\u0113 tavas dusm\u012bg\u0101s sejas izteiksmes vai &quot;Daniel, es ie\u0161u gul\u0113t, netrauc\u0113 mani &quot;.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Atvainojiet, tas, iesp\u0113jams, bija nedaudz pas\u012bvi-agres\u012bvi. Es tikai pati to jutu. Bet ja nopietni, ja es gribu run\u0101t, l\u016bdzu uzklausiet mani. Jo v\u0101rdi vienk\u0101r\u0161i nevar to visu izteikt.<\/p>\n<p>Man dro\u0161i vien j\u0101paaug.<\/p>\n<p>Un nomierinies.<\/p>\n<p>Viss b\u016bs labi.<\/p>\n<p>Es iem\u0101c\u012b\u0161os tevi iepaz\u012bt, ar laiku p\u0101rst\u0101\u0161u uztraukties par to, ko tu par mani dom\u0101 jebkur\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b.<\/p>\n<p>Var\u0113\u0161u b\u016bt mier\u012bgs, p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts rad\u012bt\u0101js. K\u0101 man g\u0101ja m\u016bsu pirmaj\u0101 randi\u0146\u0101. Un atkal tevi apburt.<\/p>\n<p>*pauze*<\/p>\n<p>Ir jautri tev pieskarties. Es tikko to izdar\u012bju un noglaud\u012bju tavu seju.<\/p>\n<p>Un man\u012b v\u0101r\u0101s kaisle - es, iesp\u0113jams, visu laiku gribu ar tevi nodarboties. Gandr\u012bz. Un v\u0113lme, lai j\u016bs piev\u0113rstu man uzman\u012bbu un vispirms uzaicin\u0101tu uz deju, mani, iesp\u0113jams, saj\u016bsmina tikpat \u013coti, k\u0101 pirmaj\u0101 tik\u0161an\u0101s reiz\u0113.<\/p>\n<p>J\u016bs, iesp\u0113jams, esat pie\u013c\u0101vis k\u013c\u016bdu, iesakot gul\u0113t pirmo\/otro nakti, ja j\u016bsu libido ir patie\u0161\u0101m zems. Liela k\u013c\u016bda. Jo es nezinu, kas notiek un vai man tevi visp\u0101r vajadz\u0113tu k\u0101rdin\u0101t - tu jau p\u0101r\u0101k bie\u017ei saki &quot;n\u0113&quot;.<\/p>\n<p>*pauze*<\/p>\n<p>Ceru, ka ar laiku iem\u0101c\u012b\u0161os par tevi ner\u016bp\u0113ties un b\u016bt laim\u012bga. Ka es m\u0101c\u0113\u0161u pie\u0146emt tavu uzman\u012bbu tik daudz, cik tu tai velti, un nem\u0113\u0123in\u0101\u0161u to ieg\u016bt atkal un atkal un atkal.<\/p>\n<p>Ceru, ka ar laiku iem\u0101c\u012b\u0161os b\u016bt laim\u012bga, kad b\u016b\u0161u kop\u0101 ar tevi.<\/p>\n<p>Jo tagad es vienk\u0101r\u0161i neesmu t\u0101ds da\u017ereiz.<\/p>\n<p>Nu es nesaprotu to saj\u016btu. T\u0101s gaismas. Jo es joproj\u0101m p\u0101r\u0101k uztraucos, vai es tie\u0161\u0101m tev pat\u012bku.<\/p>\n<p>Lasot par stipru draudz\u012bbu veido\u0161anu,<br \/>\nRakstu tev blakus gu\u013cot,<br \/>\nD.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<aside style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">1453 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>595<\/b>.<\/aside>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\"><span style=\"font-size: 1.15em;\">ko es j\u016btu<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15446,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[2,69],"class_list":{"0":"post-2852","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-laiskai","8":"tag-365-tekstai","9":"tag-meile"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2852","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2852"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2852\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15446"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2852"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2852"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2852"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}