{"id":281,"date":"2016-05-13T11:05:08","date_gmt":"2016-05-13T09:05:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=281"},"modified":"2021-07-06T22:10:33","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T19:10:33","slug":"negaliu-atsikratyti-minciu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2016\/nevaru-izklut-no-domam\/","title":{"rendered":"Prieka bal\u0101de V: Kad nevaru atbr\u012bvoties no sav\u0101m dom\u0101m."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Aina: <\/strong>rakst\u012bts 9 dienas p\u0113c Erasmus aizbrauk\u0161anas uz studij\u0101m \u010cehij\u0101.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">* * *<\/p>\n<p>* Daniels p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i pamostas. Vi\u0146\u0161 atver acis, aps\u0113\u017eas, pakrata galvu.*<\/p>\n<p>* &quot;Atkal...&quot; vi\u0146\u0161 nomurmina zem deguna. *<\/p>\n<p>* Daniels pagrie\u017eas pret skat\u012bt\u0101ju, ma\u0123iski pakrauj pirkstus uzvelk gai\u0161as bikses un vienk\u0101r\u0161u zilu T-kreklu, aps\u0113\u017eas pie datora un s\u0101k rakst\u012bt. *<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>\u010dau tu J\u0101, tu esi mana sap\u0146u d\u0101ma.<\/p>\n<p>K\u0101ds cilv\u0113ks, tavupr\u0101t, esi?<\/p>\n<p>Vai j\u016bs dom\u0101jat, ka esat sava veida galaktikas karaliene? Ka j\u016bs varat dar\u012bt visu, ko v\u0113laties?<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Vienk\u0101r\u0161i \u0146em un iejaucas manos sap\u0146os? Sp\u0113ks iebrukt tav\u0101 pr\u0101t\u0101 visnegaid\u012bt\u0101kaj\u0101s viet\u0101s? Priv\u0101t\u0101kaj\u0101s telp\u0101s?<\/p>\n<p>(Vai neviens jums nav m\u0101c\u012bjis labas manieres?)<\/p>\n<p>Jaunkundze, l\u016bdzu, p\u0101rtrauciet to, ko dar\u0101t. Es nezinu, vai t\u0101 ir voodoo ma\u0123ija, neiropsiholo\u0123ija vai s\u0101tana darbs, bet man tas vairs nepat\u012bk.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Jo vai nav jauki to dar\u012bt?<\/p>\n<p>Es sap\u0146oju par tevi jau tre\u0161o nakti. \u0160\u012b ir ceturt\u0101 diena, kad es paman\u012bju t\u0101das meitenes k\u0101 j\u016bs. Piektaj\u0101 dien\u0101 es pamanu vietas un lietas, kuras v\u0113l\u0113tos jums par\u0101d\u012bt. Un jau sestaj\u0101 dien\u0101 es gribu v\u0113lreiz pieskarties taviem matiem un dot tev elektro\u0161oku.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Es nevaru tevi izmest no galvas dev\u012btaj\u0101 dien\u0101.<\/li>\n<li>...Lai gan taj\u0101 ir ar\u012b citas domas, \u0161\u0137iet, ka man ir vair\u0101k nek\u0101 ietilptu.<\/li>\n<li>\u2026Lai gan es jau ned\u0113\u013cu dz\u012bvoju traku dz\u012bvi jaun\u0101 valst\u012b ar jauniem cilv\u0113kiem un jauniem trakiem izaicin\u0101jumiem.<\/li>\n<li>\u2026Lai gan p\u0113d\u0113jo reizi m\u0113s tik\u0101mies pirms devi\u0146\u0101m vai desmit dien\u0101m.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>K\u0101 man tas b\u016btu j\u0101saprot?<\/p>\n<p>K\u0101p\u0113c skolot\u0101jas pu\u0137ainie sv\u0101rki man atg\u0101dina tevi? K\u0101p\u0113c pavasar\u012bg\u0101, dz\u012bv\u012bg\u0101 m\u016bzika (t\u0101pat k\u0101 \u0161is br\u012bdis) man atg\u0101dina par tevi? K\u0101p\u0113c galu gal\u0101 pat satikt\u0101 fran\u010du al\u017e\u012brie\u0161a deguns atg\u0101din\u0101ja j\u016bsu burv\u012bgo mazo elpo\u0161anas apar\u0101tu?<\/p>\n<p>Es zv\u0113ru, ja es atcer\u0113tos j\u016bsu smieklu ska\u0146as, es dro\u0161i vien dzird\u0113tu tos visur.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Paldies Dievam, es to nedzirdu.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>K\u0101p\u0113c?<\/p>\n<p>Vienk\u0101r\u0161i - ja es to dzird\u0113tu, es dro\u0161i vien paliktu pavisam traks. Es jau esmu tuvu tam - galu gal\u0101 es tevi esmu satikusi tikai divas reizes (un sk\u016bpst\u012bju vienu reizi), bet es to joproj\u0101m neaizmirs\u012b\u0161u. Un visbeidzot, es negribu k\u013c\u016bt traks j\u016bsu d\u0113\u013c.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Tikai ne tad, kad tikai 9 dienas no 99 (j\u0101, es skait\u012bju) TAS VISS notiek!<\/p>\n<p>N\u0113, man t\u0101s nav lielas s\u0101pes. Es nej\u016btu s\u0101pes tevi atcer\u0113ties.<\/p>\n<p>...Bet es baidos tikai no viena - izdegt l\u012bdz atgrie\u017eoties.<\/p>\n<p>Un, kad tevi tik \u013coti moc\u012bja nebeidzamas domas, tie\u0161\u0101m ir iesp\u0113jams izdegt. Ceru, ka tu vismaz nedom\u0101 par mani katru otro dienu... \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n<p>T\u0101p\u0113c es jaut\u0101ju jums, d\u0101ma:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Lai k\u0101du ma\u0123iju j\u016bs dar\u012btu, apst\u0101jieties. Vismaz l\u012bdz es atgriez\u012b\u0161os.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Un, kad es atgriez\u012b\u0161os, es varu tevi apskaut, nosk\u016bpst\u012bt, aizvest uz atrakciju parku un tad kop\u0101 las\u012bt gr\u0101matas - tad var\u0113si turpin\u0101t ies\u0101kto.<\/p>\n<p>Bet v\u0113l ne. Ne tagad.<\/p>\n<p>Tikai ne tik slikti.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">&#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211; &#8211;<\/p>\n<p>* Daniels viegli nop\u016b\u0161as, skatoties uz rakst\u012bto v\u0113stuli. Tad vi\u0146\u0161 piece\u013cas no kr\u0113sla, pie skapja p\u0101r\u0123\u0113rbjas \u0113rt\u0101k\u0101s dr\u0113b\u0113s un steidzas satikt jaunas pazi\u0146as *<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Aina: <\/strong>rakst\u012bts 9 dienas p\u0113c Erasmus aizbrauk\u0161anas uz studij\u0101m \u010cehij\u0101.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":14465,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[89,69],"class_list":{"0":"post-281","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-laiskai","8":"tag-balade-dziaugsmui","9":"tag-meile"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=281"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/281\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14465"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=281"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=281"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=281"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}