{"id":2651,"date":"2017-06-07T18:11:15","date_gmt":"2017-06-07T15:11:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=2651"},"modified":"2021-10-02T01:02:59","modified_gmt":"2021-10-01T22:02:59","slug":"ar-mane-isimylejai","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2017\/ar-me-kaimini\/","title":{"rendered":"vai tu man\u012b iem\u012bl\u0113jies"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">1111 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>472<\/b>.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\"><span style=\"font-size: 1.15em;\">\"Vai tu mani m\u012bli?\"<\/span><\/p>\n<p>\"Es nezinu. Es neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts.\"<\/p>\n<p>Es skatos tev ac\u012bs. T\u0101s skat\u0101s uz mani, un tavas uzacis nedaudz kustas un nedaudz pace\u013cas. Tava apak\u0161\u0113j\u0101 l\u016bpa nedaudz atple\u0161as, it k\u0101 tu grib\u0113tu t\u016bl\u012bt kaut ko pateikt.<\/p>\n<p>\"Es nesaprotu. Tu man pat\u012bk. Tu esi for\u0161a, jautra un skaista. Da\u017ereiz, kad es uz tevi skatos, man \u0161\u0137iet, ka esmu iem\u012bl\u0113jies, bet es neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts...\"<\/p>\n<p>Es atliecos uz izk\u0101rn\u012bjuma un atspiedu muguru pret sienu. Pal\u016bkojos uz kreiso pusi, it k\u0101 mekl\u0113tu pazudu\u0161u paskaidrojumu. Es nop\u016b\u0161os.<\/p>\n<p>\"Da\u017ereiz, masturb\u0113jot, es dom\u0101ju par tevi.\"<\/p>\n<p>J\u016bsu acis papla\u0161in\u0101s. Bet joproj\u0101m klus\u0113. Es redzu, k\u0101 tavi pirksti pavirz\u0101s uz tabakas papl\u0101tes - z\u012bme, ka tu v\u0113lies sm\u0113\u0137\u0113t, - bet tu neko t\u0101l\u0101k nedari, t\u0101p\u0113c es ne\u013cauju sev apst\u0101ties un turpinu sm\u0113\u0137\u0113t.<\/p>\n<p>\"Tad tavas formas mani uzbudina un...\"<\/p>\n<p>Es pasmaid\u012bju, apjukusi.<\/p>\n<p>\"...J\u016bs ta\u010du zin\u0101t, k\u0101 tas notiek. V\u0101rdu sakot.\"<\/p>\n<p>Uz br\u012bdi klus\u0113ju, mekl\u0113jot, ko teikt t\u0101l\u0101k.<\/p>\n<p>\"Bet es joproj\u0101m nevaru teikt, ka t\u0101 ir m\u012blest\u012bba. Nu, vai visp\u0101r k\u0101du liel\u0101ku apbr\u012bnu. Ar cit\u0101m meiten\u0113m, piem\u0113ram, Eleonoru, kuru iepazinu pag\u0101ju\u0161\u0101 gada novembr\u012b, bija cit\u0101d\u0101k - tad man uzv\u0101r\u012bj\u0101s asinis, un es metos pie vi\u0146as, es zaud\u0113ju pr\u0101tu, j\u016btas, pa\u0161kontroli, man vajadz\u0113ja,\" - es t\u0113laini saspie\u017eu d\u016bres, piece\u013cos no kr\u0113sla un s\u0101ku iej\u016bt\u012bgi staig\u0101t pa virtuvi, - \"b\u016bt ar vi\u0146u. Un es biju. Tad es zaud\u0113ju pr\u0101tu!\"<\/p>\n<p>Es atspie\u017eu savu dibenu uz letes virs skap\u012b\u0161iem. Es skatos tev ac\u012bs.<\/p>\n<p>\"Es to nej\u016btu kop\u0101 ar tevi. Tu esi pievilc\u012bgs. Tu esi skaista. Un es j\u016btu, ka man sird\u012b virmo - t\u0101 v\u0113lme pavad\u012bt laiku kop\u0101, k\u0101 m\u0113s to dar\u0101m tagad vai ce\u013cojum\u0101 uz Sentl\u016bsiju un atpaka\u013c. Un man pat\u012bk b\u016bt kop\u0101 ar tevi, sarakst\u012bties ar tevi, run\u0101t ar tevi.\"<\/p>\n<p>Es pagrie\u017eos, atveru skap\u012bti aug\u0161\u0101, aizsniedzos lej\u0101 un pa\u0146emu tuk\u0161u gl\u0101zi. Kaut k\u0101 es izsmeltos. Pa\u0146\u0113musi gl\u0101zi, es paskatos uz tevi. Tava kafijas kr\u016bz\u012bte jau ir tuk\u0161a, bet par to es tev pajaut\u0101\u0161u v\u0113l\u0101k, es joproj\u0101m esmu \u0161aj\u0101 t\u0113m\u0101.<\/p>\n<p>\"Un es tevi uzskatu par savu draugu. Bet varb\u016bt ne tikai par draugu. Es nesaprotu.\"<\/p>\n<p>Es pagrie\u017eos atpaka\u013c pie skap\u012b\u0161iem un, aizsniedzot \u016bdens kr\u0101nu, ielieku gl\u0101zi zem \u016bdens.<\/p>\n<p>\"T\u0101tad tu joproj\u0101m j\u016bti, ka esi mani iem\u012bl\u0113jis?\"<\/p>\n<p>Tom\u0113r j\u016bs pa\u0146emat rull\u0113\u0161anas tabakas k\u0101rbu un atverat to. T\u016bl\u012bt j\u016bs atkal s\u0101kat ritu\u0101lu - pap\u012bra gabali\u0146\u0161, filtrs, tabaka, pagrieziens, laiz\u012b\u0161ana, aizz\u012bmogo\u0161ana, aicin\u0101jums doties \u0101r\u0101 sm\u0113\u0137\u0113t.<\/p>\n<p>Es aizgrie\u017eu kr\u0101nu, pietuvoju gl\u0101zi pie l\u016bp\u0101m un nedaudz iedzeru. Es skatos uz tevi no ac\u012bm l\u012bdz k\u0101j\u0101m un atpaka\u013c.<\/p>\n<p>\"Es nezinu. Un es tehniski nevaru iem\u012bl\u0113ties. \u0160obr\u012bd mans gads bez m\u012blest\u012bbas ir izaicin\u0101jums. Un es cienu izaicin\u0101jumus, tie man ir vissvar\u012bg\u0101k\u0101 dz\u012bves da\u013ca - paties\u012bb\u0101 tas ir vien\u012bgais iemesls, k\u0101p\u0113c es dz\u012bvoju.\"<\/p>\n<p>Es paskatos pa kreisi un atkal lej\u0101. Nolieku gl\u0101zi uz letes.<\/p>\n<p>\"Es nezinu, varb\u016bt to var\u0113tu saukt par platonisku m\u012blest\u012bbu? Vai kaut ko taml\u012bdz\u012bgu? Vai varb\u016bt \u012bsta m\u012blest\u012bba? Varb\u016bt patie\u0161\u0101m labas attiec\u012bbas, kuru pamat\u0101 ir tas, ka es tevi vispirms redzu k\u0101 labu draugu, k\u0101 dv\u0113seli, kas mani papildina? ...nevis ga\u013cas gabalu ar vertik\u0101lu atstarpi starp k\u0101j\u0101m?\"<\/p>\n<p>Es smaidu. Tad es \u012bsi pasmejos - dro\u0161i vien par stresu un negl\u012btiem sal\u012bdzin\u0101jumiem.<\/p>\n<p>Tu ar\u012b pasmaidi un piecelies, pa\u0146emot savilktu cigareti un savu zilo \u0161\u0137iltavu.<\/p>\n<p>\"N\u0101c, kam\u0113r es sm\u0113\u0137\u0113\u0161u, tu vari man past\u0101st\u012bt vair\u0101k.\"<\/p>\n<p>Es pasmaid\u012b\u0161u, piekr\u012btu un sekoju jums. Pirms tu p\u0101rk\u0101pj m\u0101jas slieksni, tu pagriezies un jaut\u0101:<\/p>\n<p>\"K\u0101 ir ar tavu pirmo m\u012blest\u012bbu? Tu teici, ka Laima? K\u0101 tas s\u0101k\u0101s?\"<\/p>\n<p><strong>\/\/ 28. maijs, <a href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2021\/10\/mylintis\/\">Gandr\u012bz puse no \"Gada bez m\u012blest\u012bbas\" izaicin\u0101juma.<\/a><\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">1111 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>472<\/b>.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":14985,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[2,82,69],"class_list":{"0":"post-2651","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-pamastymai","8":"tag-365-tekstai","9":"tag-fikcija","10":"tag-meile"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2651","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2651"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2651\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2651"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2651"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2651"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}