{"id":1945,"date":"2017-03-22T12:10:36","date_gmt":"2017-03-22T09:10:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=1945"},"modified":"2021-07-06T21:37:37","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T18:37:37","slug":"dvigubas-is-bibliotekos","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2017\/dubulta-biblioteka\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u012blest\u012bbas v\u0113stule: dubult\u0101 no bibliot\u0113kas"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 516 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 522<\/b>.<\/p>\n

[cenz\u0113ts],<\/span><\/p>\n

Ak puikas meitene, kas tik \u0101tri man ir k\u013cuvusi tik m\u012b\u013ca. Atbildi man.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daniels s\u0113\u017e bibliot\u0113k\u0101 un raksta \u0161o tekstu dator\u0101. Vi\u0146a kreis\u0101 k\u0101ja atrodas virs lab\u0101s puses, kr\u016btis ir nedaudz noliektas uz priek\u0161u un mazas melnas austi\u0146as aus\u012bs. Vi\u0146\u0161 raksta, k\u0101 parasti, ar abu roku r\u0101d\u012bt\u0101jpirkstiem. Taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 vi\u0146\u0161 nedaudz \u0161\u016bpojas minim\u0101lisma elektronisk\u0101s m\u016bzikas ritm\u0101.<\/p>\n

Kas tevi aizrauj visvair\u0101k?<\/strong><\/p>\n

Te vi\u0146\u0161 apst\u0101jas, dom\u0101jot, ko rakst\u012bt t\u0101l\u0101k.<\/p>\n

Kas tev pat\u012bk visvair\u0101k? Ko jums visvair\u0101k pat\u012bk redz\u0113t katru reizi, iesl\u0113dzot datoru, darbvirsmu, e-pastu? pasts vai glieme\u017eu pasts?<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0160eit Daniels aizver acis, klausoties m\u016bziku. Vi\u0146\u0161 ar\u012b izt\u0113lojas [cenz\u0113tu] vi\u0146as istab\u0101 \u2014 nobru\u017e\u0101t\u0101, bet rado\u0161\u0101 \u2014 s\u0113\u017eam uz gultas lotosa poz\u0101 un atverot datora ekr\u0101nu. Tiek atska\u0146ots Windows OS zvana sign\u0101ls. Lia-lia-lia-Liaa-Liaa.<\/p>\n

Es gribu to zin\u0101t. Lai es var\u0113tu b\u016bt neori\u0123in\u0101ls un dot jums to, cik sp\u0113ju. \u2026Un zin\u0101t, ko j\u016bs sagaid\u0101t, ja es izdom\u0101\u0161u kaut ko jaunu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daniels paskat\u0101s uz meiteni, kas s\u0113\u017e galda otr\u0101 pus\u0113. Vi\u0146a tulko gigantisku, teksta pilnu gr\u0101matu, un \u0161\u0137iet, ka taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 vi\u0146as galv\u0101 grie\u017eas v\u0101rdi "Ak-Mai-Gad, es te neko nesaprotu!". Daniels pasmaida un atgrie\u017eas pie sava teksta.<\/p>\n

J\u016bs dro\u0161i vien jau zin\u0101t, kas man pat\u012bk. Noteikti uzmin\u0113j\u0101t, ko man pat\u012bk redz\u0113t, kad redzu jaunu pazi\u0146ojumu, ka no jums ir sa\u0146emta zi\u0146a. Es redzu - da\u017ereiz j\u016bs klaus\u0101ties, ko es saku. Reiz\u0113m ieiet pa vienu ausi iek\u0161\u0101 un pa otru \u0101r\u0101, bet citreiz paliek.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daniels uz mirkli apst\u0101jas, atvelk elpu, stulbi pasmaida un nedaudz sa\u0161\u0137ob\u0101s. Ikviens, kur\u0161 paz\u012bst Danielu tuv\u0101k, zina, ka t\u0101 ir vi\u0146a izpausme, kad vi\u0146am kaut kas \u013coti, \u013coti pat\u012bk. Nav svar\u012bgi, vai tie ir izrun\u0101tie v\u0101rdi, ieg\u0101d\u0101tais gardais k\u016bci\u0146\u0161 vai draudz\u012bgs pat\u0113ri\u0146\u0161.<\/p>\n

Bet kas tev pat\u012bk?<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0160eit vi\u0146a sejas izteiksme nedaudz main\u0101s un k\u013c\u016bst nopietna. Vi\u0146\u0161 s\u0101k skat\u012bties uz apk\u0101rt s\u0113do\u0161ajiem cilv\u0113kiem un dom\u0101, ko rakst\u012bt t\u0101l\u0101k. Vi\u0146a galv\u0101 l\u0113n\u0101m grie\u017eas domas.<\/p>\n

Es nezinu k\u0101p\u0113c, es pat nesaprotu k\u0101p\u0113c, bet es gribu j\u016bs iepriecin\u0101t. Es gribu redz\u0113t tavu smaidu. Vai ar\u012b to neredz\u0113t, jo j\u016bs to pasl\u0113pat zem dr\u0113b\u0113m, rota\u013cliet\u0101m vai ka\u0137iem, bet zinot, ka tas joproj\u0101m ir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

...Lai gan reiz\u0113m, atz\u012b\u0161os, nej\u016btos laim\u012bga. \u012apa\u0161i p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101 ned\u0113\u013c\u0101, varb\u016bt mana noguruma vai k\u0101 cita d\u0113\u013c, man lik\u0101s, ka vi\u0146\u0161 nemaz negrib ar mani komunic\u0113t. Lik\u0101s, ka tavas zi\u0146as k\u013cuva \u012bs\u0101kas, un \u0161\u0137iet, ka tu tik \u013coti necenties at\u0161ifr\u0113t man\u0113jo... Un tu pats s\u0101ki uztraukties par to, k\u0101p\u0113c es esmu dusm\u012bgs vai b\u0113d\u012bgs.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u2026\u0160\u0137iet, ka tu kaut k\u0101 zini, k\u0101 es j\u016btos.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daniels te smaida. Maina pozu. Tagad, jau novilcis kurpes, vi\u0146\u0161 liek kreiso k\u0101ju zem lab\u0101s p\u0113das, t\u0101d\u0113j\u0101di pa pusei s\u0113\u017eot lotosa poz\u0101. P\u0113c mirk\u013ca sap\u0146o\u0161anas vi\u0146\u0161 atkal s\u0101k maigi \u0161\u016bpoties m\u016bzikas ritm\u0101, vi\u0146a sej\u0101 atgrie\u017eas smaids, kas bija s\u0101kum\u0101.<\/p>\n

Un es atvainojos. Ka es biju dusm\u012bgs. Ka esmu dusm\u012bgs. Es zinu, ka tev tas nepat\u012bk. Bet saproti - es neesmu dusm\u012bgs uz tevi, bet tikai uz sav\u0101m cer\u012bb\u0101m. Un t\u0101das dusmas... Nu, laikam k\u0101 visas dusmas... T\u0101s paz\u016bd tikpat \u0101tri, cik par\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s, tikl\u012bdz redzu, ka es nek\u013c\u016bd\u012bjos.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Vi\u0146\u0161 apst\u0101jas un \u017e\u0101v\u0101jas. Viegli noteikts un nedaudz padom\u0101jis, vi\u0146\u0161 atgrie\u017eas pie v\u0113stules.<\/p>\n

Bet \u0161eit tas ir. Ja m\u0113s to ignor\u0113jam un atgriez\u012bsimies s\u0101kum\u0101: no vis\u0101m liet\u0101m, ko esmu teicis un pat var\u0113tu jums pateikt, kas jums pat\u012bk visvair\u0101k? Kas tev liktu izkust, kad tu dzirdi no manis, k\u0101 es da\u017ereiz k\u016bstu?<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daniels atkal pasmaida savu \u201cman \u013coti pat\u012bk\u201d smaidu, iesp\u0113jams, atceroties kaut ko [cenz\u0113tu] pag\u0101tn\u0113. Varb\u016bt atceries k\u0101du gardu k\u016bci\u0146u.<\/p>\n

Daniels<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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