{"id":1939,"date":"2017-03-28T12:08:25","date_gmt":"2017-03-28T09:08:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=1939"},"modified":"2021-10-01T02:47:04","modified_gmt":"2021-09-30T23:47:04","slug":"visi-kurejai-pradeda-nuo-nesamoniu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2017\/all-cookies-buy-now-but-not-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Visi izstr\u0101d\u0101t\u0101ji s\u0101k ar mu\u013c\u0137\u012bb\u0101m (min\u0113jumi vai attaisnojumi)<\/i>"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 548 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 631<\/b>.<\/p>\n

Past\u0101v m\u012bts, ka rakstnieki raksta tikai labas lietas. Es sevi saucu par rakstnieku, un da\u017ereiz es rakstu, t\u0101tad... Un es nerakstu tik labas lietas. Piem\u0113ram, lietas, kuras es nepublic\u0113ju.<\/span><\/p>\n

R\u012bkojam atkritumu t\u012br\u012b\u0161anas dienu. Es dal\u012b\u0161os ar da\u017eiem veciem tekstiem, kurus rakst\u012bju, lai atcer\u0113tos un atg\u016btu tos pats domas sen miru\u0161as<\/a>.<\/p>\n

(\u0160ie teksti ir p\u0101rrakst\u012bti no nebeidzam\u0101m piez\u012bmju gr\u0101mati\u0146\u0101m. otraj\u0101 m\u0113nes\u012b ar rakst\u012b\u0161anu<\/strong>. Es tos esmu ar\u012b nedaudz redi\u0123\u0113jis, un redaktore Agne (kas mani gl\u0101bj no pareizrakst\u012bbas gr\u0113kiem) tos ir pabeigusi.)<\/p>\n

2014. gada 1. oktobris.<\/h2>\n

Oktobris n\u0101ca negaid\u012bti.<\/p>\n

Varb\u016bt t\u0101p\u0113c, ka p\u0113d\u0113jais m\u0113nesis ir bijis pilns neaizmirstamas pieredzes - pirm\u0101s ned\u0113\u013cas Erasmus programm\u0101, jaunas attiec\u012bbas ar jauniem cilv\u0113kiem, draugiem un meiten\u0113m. Un vesela virkne papildu piedz\u012bvojumu.<\/p>\n

Septembr\u012b man bija m\u0113r\u0137is visu m\u0113nesi neskait\u012bties dusm\u012bga vai dusm\u012bga. Nezinu, k\u0101, bet man izdev\u0101s neskait\u012bties dusm\u012bgam, \u012bpa\u0161i necen\u0161oties. Varb\u016bt to ietekm\u0113ja raksti, kurus biju \u010dakli izlas\u012bjusi august\u0101 par dusmu b\u016bt\u012bbu un to, k\u0101 no t\u0101m izvair\u012bties. Varb\u016bt to ietekm\u0113ja tas, ka main\u012bju savu vidi un (pagaid\u0101m) atbr\u012bvojos no, iesp\u0113jams, visvair\u0101k dusmas izraiso\u0161ajiem cilv\u0113kiem sav\u0101 ikdien\u0101 - vec\u0101kiem. Varb\u016bt to ietekm\u0113ja ar\u012b tas, ka mana vide lika man aizmirst dusmas. Vai varb\u016bt es izaugu. Es nezinu.<\/p>\n

\u0160odien (prec\u012bz\u0101k, \u0161ovakar - es rakstu \u0161o tekstu, un pulkstenis r\u0101da pusstundu p\u0113c trijiem no r\u012bta) ir jauna izaicin\u0101juma diena, un es nezinu, kuru no tiem es pie\u0146em\u0161u.<\/p>\n

Es dom\u0101ju par m\u0113nesi bez t\u0101lru\u0146a. Vai m\u0113nesi ar sportu. Vai m\u0113nesi skrie\u0161anas vai pastaigas. Vai kaut ko citu? Es v\u0113l nezinu, ko izv\u0113l\u0113\u0161os. Ceru, ka r\u012bt no r\u012bta to uzzin\u0101sim. Apspried\u012b\u0161os ar saviem draugiem, pazi\u0146\u0101m, savu makaku un pie\u0146em\u0161u l\u0113mumu.<\/p>\n

R\u012bt ir jauna izaicin\u0101juma diena. S\u0101ksies vienpadsmitais trakais m\u0113nesis.<\/p>\n

2014. gada 2. oktobris.<\/h2>\n

T\u0101tad \u0161odien es s\u0101ku izaicin\u0101jumu bez seju gr\u0101matas un ar 100 jaun\u0101m pazi\u0146\u0101m. Vien\u0101 oktobra m\u0113nes\u012b. Tas ir traki. Bet es to daru. Tas, iesp\u0113jams, esmu es.<\/p>\n

Vai es biju? Protams, ka biju!<\/p>\n

Vai es vismaz m\u0113\u0123in\u0101\u0161u to dar\u012bt? Tas ar\u012b ir skaidrs!<\/p>\n

Vai man izdosies? Man nav ne jausmas!<\/p>\n

...Galu gal\u0101, tikai m\u0113ne\u0161a beig\u0101s es var\u0113\u0161u saskait\u012bt galvas.<\/p>\n

2014. gada 10. oktobris.<\/h2>\n

Galven\u0101 varone: meitene, kura gandr\u012bz mirst p\u0113c tra\u0123iska negad\u012bjuma un saprot, ka v\u0113las main\u012bt savu tra\u0123isko dz\u012bvi. Vi\u0146a v\u0113las main\u012bt savu dz\u012bvi. Vi\u0146a v\u0113las izk\u013c\u016bt no narkotiku, traka seksa, netic\u012bbas, bezdarba, l\u0113tas prostit\u016bcijas un \"\u012bst\u0101s dz\u012bves\" virpu\u013ca.<\/p>\n

Vi\u0146a nekad nav bijusi atkl\u0101ta, sabiedriska meitene, un b\u0113rn\u012bb\u0101 vi\u0146u iebied\u0113ja m\u0101te, kura bija greizsird\u012bga uz vi\u0146as skaistumu. Kop\u0161 t\u0101 laika vi\u0146a ir kaun\u0113jusies par savu dabisko skaistumu un izvair\u012bjusies no matu aug\u0161anas, kr\u0101so\u0161anas, grie\u0161anas, tetov\u0113\u0161anas un miljoniem auskaru neskaidr\u0101s viet\u0101s. Vi\u0146as \u0137ermeni kl\u0101j mazas un lielas pag\u0101tnes br\u016bces, un tikai p\u0113c negad\u012bjuma, pamostoties slimn\u012bcas gult\u0101, vi\u0146a saprot, kas noticis.<\/p>\n

Vi\u0146a saprot, ka vairs nev\u0113las dz\u012bvot \u0161\u0101du dz\u012bvi. Un nolemj to main\u012bt. Bet tas ir gr\u016bti, nepr\u0101t\u012bgi gr\u016bti. Vi\u0146as \u0123imene vi\u0146u neatz\u012bst, vi\u0146ai nav \u012bstu draugu, vi\u0146ai nekad nav bijis norm\u0101la, nevis nenorm\u0101la pui\u0161a, nemaz nerun\u0101jot par izgl\u012bt\u012bbu, darbu, dz\u012bves j\u0113gu un visu p\u0101r\u0113jo.<\/p>\n

Ta\u010du vi\u0146a cen\u0161as. Vi\u0146a \u013coti cen\u0161as. Un pasaule pamaz\u0101m vi\u0146ai piek\u0101pjas. Vi\u0146a neaizb\u0113g uz citu valsti. Vi\u0146a paliek tur, kur bija, un cen\u0161as labot to, ko vi\u0146a sav\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113 ir izdar\u012bjusi. Da\u017ereiz tas ir neiesp\u0113jami. Da\u017ereiz tas ir \u013coti gr\u016bti. Reiz\u0113m vi\u0146ai tas izdodas. Un pasaule k\u013c\u016bst mazliet lab\u0101ka.<\/p>\n

Bet p\u0113c da\u017eiem m\u0113ne\u0161iem, pusgada, gada vi\u0146a s\u0101k paman\u012bt, ka dz\u012bve nav t\u0101da, k\u0101da t\u0101 vienm\u0113r bijusi. T\u0101 ir cit\u0101da. T\u0101 ir gandr\u012bz viltota.<\/p>\n

Tad, kad vi\u0146a s\u0101k justies laim\u012bga, kad vi\u0146a, main\u012bjusies un apzin\u0101jusies savas k\u013c\u016bdas, atrod \u012bstu draugu, \u012bstu dz\u012bvesprieku, dz\u012bves j\u0113gu pal\u012bdz\u0113t citiem un atkl\u0101j v\u012brieti, kuru var patiesi m\u012bl\u0113t, ne t\u0101du k\u0101 iepriek\u0161\u0113jos pui\u0161us... Viss atk\u0101rtojas. Un gaismu, stroboskopu un benz\u012bna pilns strauji virzo\u0161ais kalns par\u0101d\u0101s priek\u0161\u0101.<\/p>\n

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...Un, k\u0101 redzat,<\/strong> Oktobr\u012b es nerakst\u012bju katru dienu. Pirmaj\u0101 m\u0113ne\u0161a tre\u0161da\u013c\u0101, un viss!<\/p>\n

...Un k\u0101 j\u016bs neredzat,<\/strong> Man ir kauns par \u0161o br\u012bdi. Es v\u0113los, lai es toreiz b\u016btu rakst\u012bjis lab\u0101k. Labi, ka es nedal\u012bjos ar \u0161iem tekstiem. Nu, l\u012bdz \u0161odienai. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

R\u012bt izrak\u0161u tekstu otro pusi *rot\u0101s piedurknes*.<\/p>\n

kur\u0161 rakst\u012bja mu\u013c\u0137\u012bbas,
\nDaniels<\/strong><\/p>\n

Atjaunin\u0101ts:\u00a0<\/strong>Turpin\u0101jums \u0161eit: https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/2017\/03\/irgi-pradejau-nuo-nesamoniu\/<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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