nospiediet \u0161os burtus un lasiet<\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n2014. gada 11. oktobris.<\/h2>\n
M\u016bsu varones t\u0113vs bija nosl\u0113gts, nedaudz psihop\u0101tiski atbaido\u0161s cilv\u0113ks. Vi\u0146\u0161 neizr\u0101d\u012bja m\u012blest\u012bbu pret savu sievu un, v\u0113l svar\u012bg\u0101k, savu meitu. Ja vi\u0146a grib\u0113ja kaut mazu m\u012blest\u012bbu, vi\u0146\u0161 vi\u0146u atgr\u016bda un dev\u0101s uz savu b\u016bdi\u0146u, ko atrada pagalma aizmugur\u0113, kur ska\u013ci klaus\u012bj\u0101s Frenku Sinatru, Elvisu un citus vecus cilv\u0113kus. Tas bija vien\u012bgais, ko var\u0113ja dzird\u0113t aiz b\u016bdi\u0146as aizv\u0113rtaj\u0101m durv\u012bm, kur b\u0113rn\u012bb\u0101 m\u016bsu varone st\u0101v\u0113ja un klaus\u012bj\u0101s.<\/p>\n
T\u0113vs nekad nav izr\u0101d\u012bjis m\u012blest\u012bbu savai meitai. Vi\u0146a vi\u0146am bija k\u0101 lieta, kas bija atdz\u012bvojusies, lai gan vi\u0146\u0161 nekad to nev\u0113l\u0113j\u0101s. \u0160is bija cilv\u0113ks, kur\u0161 m\u012bl\u0113ja savu darbu (lai ko vi\u0146\u0161 dar\u012btu) un ien\u012bda cilv\u0113kus. Reiz vi\u0146\u0161 m\u0113\u0123in\u0101ja b\u016bt cilv\u0113ks, ta\u010du atkal un atkal tika atraid\u012bts, t\u0101p\u0113c dz\u012bve pagriez\u0101s \u0161aj\u0101 virzien\u0101.<\/p>\n
Vi\u0146\u0161 ar\u012b nem\u012bl\u0113ja savu sievu. Sieva bija t\u0101, kas alkst uzman\u012bbu, bet nesa\u0146\u0113ma to.<\/p>\n
Reiz, kad m\u016bsu varone apmekl\u0113ja mazliet lab\u0101ku restor\u0101nu, nek\u0101 vi\u0146a jebkad sav\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113 bija apmekl\u0113jusi, vi\u0146a dzird\u0113ja Frenka Sinatras kluso dziesmu LOVE... Un raud\u0101ja. \u0160\u012b dziesma vi\u0146ai atg\u0101din\u0101ja vi\u0146as t\u0113vu, visas vi\u0146u nevesel\u012bg\u0101s attiec\u012bbas un to, k\u0101 vi\u0146as t\u0113vs main\u012bj\u0101s vienu dienu p\u0113c nezin\u0101ma notikuma.<\/p>\n
(Varb\u016bt tas notikums ir traum\u0113jo\u0161s - nedzimu\u0161ais (miris) b\u0113rns? Vai vi\u0146\u0161 k\u0101du nogalin\u0101ja? Vai nomira m\u012b\u013cotais cilv\u0113ks, kur\u0161 vien\u012bgais vi\u0146u uztur\u0113ja pie pr\u0101ta?)<\/p>\n
Dzird\u0113t\u0101 dziesma aizkustin\u0101ja m\u016bsu varoni. Vi\u0146a s\u0101ka dungot un, jo ilg\u0101k vi\u0146a to dar\u012bja, jo skumj\u0101ka k\u013cuva. Vi\u0146as attiec\u012bbu ar pui\u0161iem d\u0113\u013c, m\u012blest\u012bbas tr\u016bkuma d\u0113\u013c un visas tra\u0123isk\u0101s dz\u012bves d\u0113\u013c, ko vi\u0146a neizmantoja.<\/p>\n
2014. gada 14. oktobris.<\/h2>\n
V\u0113stule trok\u0161\u0146ot\u0101jiem par miegu un sap\u0146iem.<\/p>\n
Vai tu nep\u0101rtrauksi dauz\u012bties? Grab radiatoru? Trok\u0161\u0146ot?<\/p>\n
Un atkal.<\/p>\n
Pulkstens ir tr\u012bs no r\u012bta.<\/p>\n
Un j\u016bs pamodiniet visus, ko varat.<\/p>\n
Dievs, k\u0101 es tevi ien\u012bstu.<\/p>\n
Murgs.<\/p>\n
ES gribu gul\u0113t.<\/p>\n
ES gribu gul\u0113t.<\/p>\n
Gribu p\u0101rgul\u0113t ar Simonu.<\/p>\n
Apskauj vi\u0146u un esi vi\u0146as apskauts.<\/p>\n
Un j\u016bs te grab\u0113jat.<\/p>\n
Un pat sap\u0146i \u2013 un tie \u2013 tu izk\u0101pj no galvas.<\/p>\n
\u012astu, neatkar\u012bgu prieku \u0161aj\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113 ir maz.<\/p>\n
Br\u012bv\u012bba sap\u0146ot un sap\u0146ot ir viena no t\u0101m.<\/p>\n
Un tu \u0146em un aizved.<\/p>\n
Ar savu troksni.<\/p>\n
Haoss.<\/p>\n
Ar traku izn\u012bc\u012bbu.<\/p>\n
Austi\u0146\u0101s skan dramatiska un spoc\u012bga Latin E Nomine m\u016bzika\u2026<\/p>\n
...es rakstu to, ko man vajag. Ko es piespiedu sevi dar\u012bt.<\/p>\n
Un vai es var\u0113\u0161u gul\u0113t? Vai tu var\u0113si gul\u0113t?<\/p>\n
Un v\u0113l svar\u012bg\u0101k, vai tu var\u0113si sap\u0146ot par Saimonu?<\/p>\n
vai at\u013causi<\/p>\n
Klusums!<\/p>\n
2014.\u00a0gada 20.\u00a0oktobris.<\/h2>\n
\u012asa v\u0113stule-zi\u0146a [cenz\u0113ts].<\/p>\n
Jaut\u0101ju, kas tev tik \u013coti pat\u012bk, ka pateici paldies un saliec sirdis kop\u0101?<\/p>\n
Kad tu teici, pat ja ne tie\u0161i un varb\u016bt man nenor\u0101dot, ka cilv\u0113ks, kur\u0161 kaut ko ir sasniedzis, ar\u012b tav\u0101s ac\u012bs ir stulbs (+ smaidi\u0146\u0161), es to uztv\u0113ru k\u0101 komplimentu.<\/p>\n
Un man pat\u012bk atbalsta v\u0101rdi. Dievs, citiem var\u0113tu \u0161\u0137ist, ka man tie nemaz nav vajadz\u012bgi \u2013 Daniels vienm\u0113r ir tik augstpr\u0101t\u012bgs \u2013, bet man tie sag\u0101d\u0101 milz\u012bgu prieku. It \u012bpa\u0161i, ja tas n\u0101k no meitenes, par kuru es esmu simp\u0101tija.<\/p>\n
Kas tevi tik \u013coti ietekm\u0113? Pat ieraugot to "paldies" no tevis un citas atzin\u012bbas, priec\u0113! Manupr\u0101t, tas iekr\u012bt vien\u0101 un taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 prieka groz\u0101 kop\u0101 ar atbalsta v\u0101rdiem.<\/p>\n
Es jau redz\u0113ju, ka jums patika no r\u012bta kast\u012bt\u0113 atrast zemesriekstu sviestu no \u010cehijas.<\/p>\n
Man ir t\u0101da saj\u016bta, ka tev pat\u012bk sa\u0146emt d\u0101vanas tik un t\u0101 - tu teici, ka tev pat\u012bk t\u0101s d\u0101vin\u0101t citiem, bet t\u0101di m\u0113s esam - dar\u0101m citiem to, kas pat\u012bk mums pa\u0161iem.<\/p>\n
(Ha, tagad, kad es par to iedom\u0101jos - ak, man \u013coti pat\u012bk las\u012bt j\u016bsu bezgal\u012bg\u0101s v\u0113stules un j\u016bsu domas, t\u0101pat k\u0101 es pats.)<\/p>\n
Laikam tev pat\u012bk, ka par tevi r\u016bp\u0113jas.<\/p>\n
Laikam tev pat\u012bk sa\u0146emt d\u0101vanas.<\/p>\n
Laikam tev pat\u012bk, kad citi ir atv\u0113rti. Un saka, ja kaut kas nav k\u0101rt\u012bb\u0101.<\/p>\n
Biju atcer\u0113jies v\u0113l kaut ko, bet tagad vairs neatceros. Nu tas ar\u012b viss, n\u0101kamreiz atcer\u0113\u0161os.<\/p>\n
Vai \u0161\u012bs lietas ir patiesas?<\/p>\n
Kas tev tik \u013coti pat\u012bk, ka saki paldies un saliec kop\u0101 sirdis?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
* * *<\/strong><\/p>\n\u2026Un tas bija mans oktobris! <\/strong><\/div>\nVai vismaz da\u013cu no t\u0101. P\u0101r\u0113jos oktobra tekstus jau esmu pasp\u0113jusi public\u0113t, vai ret\u0101s dien\u0101s (m\u0113ne\u0161a laik\u0101 laikam bija septi\u0146i) - neko neuzrakst\u012bju.<\/p>\n
Vai k\u013c\u016bst skaidr\u0101ks, ka da\u017ereiz rakstu ar\u012b mu\u013c\u0137\u012bbas?<\/p>\n
kur\u0161 rakst\u012bja mu\u013c\u0137\u012bbas,
\n Daniels<\/strong><\/p>\nP.S<\/strong> \u013boti iesp\u0113jams, ka es rakstu mu\u013c\u0137\u012bbas ar\u012b tagad. Atst\u0101jiet koment\u0101ru, ja t\u0101 dom\u0101jat. Lai nu k\u0101, neuztraucieties, p\u0113c pieciem vai desmit (vai piecdesmit) gadiem es pats tam notic\u0113\u0161u. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 554 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 668<\/b>.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15638,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[2,70,106],"class_list":{"0":"post-1938","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-pamastymai","8":"tag-365-tekstai","9":"tag-klaidos","10":"tag-rasymas"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1938","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1938"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1938\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15638"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1938"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1938"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1938"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}