{"id":1883,"date":"2017-03-20T23:40:58","date_gmt":"2017-03-20T20:40:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=1883"},"modified":"2021-07-06T21:49:01","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T18:49:01","slug":"susiktas-printeris","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2017\/tinums-printeris\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u012blest\u012bbas v\u0113stule: \u0161is printeris padara mani traku!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 506 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 694<\/b>.<\/p>\n

Tas printeris padara mani traku. Un \u0161odien gandr\u012bz neviens nestr\u0101d\u0101...\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Gr.<\/p>\n

UN K\u0100P\u0112C ES \u0160ODIEN J\u016aTOSES TIK D\u012bvaini?<\/p>\n

K\u0100P\u0112C?<\/p>\n

K\u0100P\u0112C ES J\u016aTAS, KA MAN NEDR\u012aKST AR JUMS SAZI\u0145AS?<\/p>\n

PAT LAI VAKAR ES JUT\u0100S TIK LABI, TO DARBOTIES?<\/p>\n

K\u0100P\u0112C?<\/p>\n

Es j\u016btos apmald\u012bjies.<\/p>\n

Es pats nesaprotu.<\/p>\n

Vai tas ir labi, ka es tik daudz ar tevi run\u0101ju?<\/p>\n

Es tev tik daudz rakstu?<\/p>\n

Vai esmu k\u013cuvis tik atv\u0113rts asi\u0146ainiem cenzoriem?<\/p>\n

Tas ir absurds.<\/p>\n

Atveries, lai b\u016btu jauks.<\/p>\n

Bet tik daudz cilv\u0113ku un tik daudz gr\u0101matu, rakstu un \u017eurn\u0101lu man ir teiku\u0161i, ka ir nepareizi visu atkl\u0101t.<\/p>\n

Tas ir nepareizi.<\/p>\n

Un man pa\u0161ai ir bail \u2013 vai p\u0113c tam nebr\u012bn\u012b\u0161os ar tevi sazin\u0101ties?<\/p>\n

Neb\u016bsi p\u0101rsteigts?<\/p>\n

Vai tas visp\u0101r ir iesp\u0113jams starp diviem piln\u012bgi saska\u0146otiem cilv\u0113kiem?<\/p>\n

Un, ja tas nav iesp\u0113jams, tad, ja jums paliek garlaic\u012bgi, tas, manupr\u0101t, noz\u012bm\u0113, ka viens nav piem\u0113rots otram?<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c es neizbaudu mirkli?<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c es skaita dienas?<\/p>\n

[Apst\u0101jas.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

[Vi\u0146\u0161 pa\u0137er pap\u012bru ar datumiem un, k\u0101 pirms stundas dom\u0101ja, gu\u013c gult\u0101... sapl\u0113\u0161 to.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Pietiekami.<\/p>\n

Es negribu skait\u012bt dienas.<\/p>\n

Es negribu gaid\u012bt.<\/p>\n

Es gribu sazin\u0101ties tagad. Dz\u012bvot b\u016bt<\/p>\n

Un, sasod\u012bts, tas nol\u0101d\u0113tais printeris.<\/p>\n

Dievs, es ien\u012bstu troksni!<\/p>\n

UN K\u0100P\u0112C BIBLIOT\u0112KAS IR SL\u0112GTAS? K\u0100P\u0112C?<\/p>\n

Es j\u016btos apmald\u012bjies.<\/p>\n

Esmu nobijies.<\/p>\n

[Iedvesmo. Dzi\u013ci.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

[L\u0113n\u0101m, l\u0113n\u0101m izelpo.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

[Ieelpo.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

[Izelpo.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tagad ir lab\u0101k.<\/p>\n

Es joproj\u0101m esmu apmulsusi, bet vismaz bailes p\u0101riet.<\/p>\n

*Tun-tun-tun-tun*, m\u016bzika man\u0101s aus\u012bs.<\/p>\n

Skan bungas, trompetes, klavieres un kaudzis citu instrumentu.<\/p>\n

Un es s\u0113\u017eu un rakstu.<\/p>\n

Es rakstu meitenei, kura nezina, vai vi\u0146a mani saprot.<\/p>\n

Da\u017ereiz es nesaprotu sevi, bet ne par to ir runa.<\/p>\n

Es rakstu meitenei, kura nezina, vai vi\u0146a mani saprot.<\/p>\n

Ko es dom\u0101ju un ko m\u0113ru.<\/p>\n

Es nezinu, vai man iet labi.<\/p>\n

Manas bailes iek\u0161\u0101 saka, ka ir nepareizi st\u0101st\u012bt meiten\u0113m visu.<\/p>\n

Tas ir nev\u012bri\u0161\u0137\u012bgi.<\/p>\n

Tas nav nopietni.<\/p>\n

Tas ir p\u0101r\u0101k atv\u0113rts.<\/p>\n

Ak n\u0113, vi\u0146a redz\u0113s, k\u0101da es b\u016b\u0161u!<\/p>\n

Ak n\u0113, vi\u0146a mani pamet\u012bs!<\/p>\n

Ak n\u0113, n\u0113!<\/p>\n

[Vi\u0146\u0161 dom\u0101s klepo.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

V\u0113lreiz atvainojos par slikto balsi. Es to jutu.<\/p>\n

[Sav\u0101cis pap\u012bra l\u016b\u017e\u0146us un sakrauj tos. Uzce\u013c torni.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Manas bailes saka, ka ir nepareizi st\u0101st\u012bt meiten\u0113m visu.<\/p>\n

\u012apa\u0161i tie, kurus j\u016bs apbr\u012bnojat.<\/p>\n

\u012apa\u0161i tas, k\u0101 j\u016bs vi\u0146us apbr\u012bnojat.<\/p>\n

It \u012bpa\u0161i, k\u0101 j\u016bs baid\u0101ties vi\u0146iem pateikt.<\/p>\n

\u012apa\u0161i bailes tos pazaud\u0113t.<\/p>\n

\u012apa\u0161i tas, k\u0101 tu nevari vien sagaid\u012bt, kad var\u0113si dz\u012bvot.<\/p>\n

\u012apa\u0161i tas, k\u0101 j\u0101atceras elpot, lai atgrieztos tagadn\u0113 un izbaud\u012btu vidi, kur\u0101 atrodaties.<\/p>\n

Manas bailes run\u0101 daudz.<\/p>\n

Un es nezinu, vai es to daru pareizi vai n\u0113.<\/p>\n

Ziniet, man \u0161\u0137iet, ka \u0161obr\u012bd esmu gatavs izaicin\u0101jumam.<\/p>\n

Man laikam pat\u012bk \u0161\u012b bai\u013cu un nemiera saj\u016bta. Mazohistiski.<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c?<\/p>\n

Vienk\u0101r\u0161i \u2013 vi\u0146\u0161 liek dz\u012bvot.<\/p>\n

Vi\u0146\u0161 piespie\u017e b\u016bt.<\/p>\n

Tas liek n\u0101kotn\u0113 atcer\u0113ties mirk\u013cus, kad no kaut k\u0101 baid\u012bjies. Un esi laim\u012bgs, jo esi p\u0101rvar\u0113jis savas bailes.<\/p>\n

Man vienk\u0101r\u0161i interes\u0113 \u2013 vai ir labi p\u0101rvar\u0113t \u0161\u012bs bailes?<\/p>\n

Vai tas vienm\u0113r ir labi?<\/p>\n

[Smejas, atkal dom\u0101jot.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ha - l\u016bk, \u0161aubas ir labas. Lai gan es tikko teicu, ka tas ir labi. Es tev teicu, ka esmu \u0161aubu meistars!<\/p>\n

*Fon\u0101 s\u0101k sp\u0113l\u0113t Two Steps from Hell - Argovia 38.\u00a0sekunde, darb\u012bba s\u0101kas*<\/a><\/p>\n

Bet ziniet, es joproj\u0101m esmu apmierin\u0101ts ar sav\u0101m \u0161aub\u0101m.<\/p>\n

Esmu ar\u012b apmierin\u0101ta ar to, ko daru.<\/p>\n

Es nekad neesmu m\u0113\u0123in\u0101jis b\u016bt atv\u0113rts.<\/p>\n

Un nez \u2013 kas no t\u0101 san\u0101ks?<\/p>\n

Vai es satik\u0161u savu m\u016b\u017ea m\u012blest\u012bbu un dz\u012bvo\u0161u kop\u0101 ar vi\u0146u varav\u012bksnes un vienrad\u017eu zem\u0113, kur pl\u016bst kakao upes ar zemesriekstu sviesta krastiem?<\/p>\n

Vai ar\u012b mani miltos samals cilv\u0113ks, kuram tik daudz st\u0101st\u012bju?<\/p>\n

Tas ir t\u0101pat k\u0101 sp\u0113l\u0113t Va Banque, vai ne?<\/p>\n

[Paz\u016bd. Kur tu pabeidzi? Maina m\u016bzikas ierakstu un m\u0113\u0123ina atcer\u0113ties.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bet kur es nok\u013cuvu?<\/p>\n

\u0100, zini, tas ar\u012b viss \u2013 l\u012bdz \u0161im nelas\u012b\u0161u, ko uzrakst\u012bju.<\/p>\n

Ja jau rakstu savas domas - ko dom\u0101ju... Lai paliek domu straume.<\/p>\n

Un nevis strikti iestud\u0113ta v\u0113stule, raksts vai dzejolis.<\/p>\n

Es zinu, ka net\u0101lu no manas kopm\u012btnes ir me\u017es.<\/p>\n

Es taisos apstaig\u0101t to. Es izp\u0113t\u012b\u0161u, kas taj\u0101 ir. Vai tas ir liels? Vai taj\u0101 ir auksti? Vai ir daudz koku?<\/p>\n

Es eju, jo man s\u0101p galva. No trok\u0161\u0146a. Un bezgal\u012bgas domas.<\/p>\n

Es ie\u0161u, jo negribu raud\u0101t. Es nezinu k\u0101p\u0113c, bet man\u0101s ac\u012bs atkal kaut kas notiek, t\u0101p\u0113c, ja es grib\u0113tu, es var\u0113tu. Es nesaprotu, k\u0101p\u0113c tas notiek TAGAD.<\/p>\n

Es do\u0161os, jo v\u0113los, lai j\u016bs to izlas\u012btu, kad es vairs b\u016b\u0161u tie\u0161saist\u0113.<\/p>\n

Jo es v\u0113los, lai j\u016bs atrakstat.<\/p>\n

kaut ko.<\/p>\n

Un es dom\u0101ju, lai mani nomierin\u0101tu.<\/p>\n

Un lai atg\u0101din\u0101tu, ka nevajag dom\u0101t.<\/p>\n

J\u016bs atg\u0101din\u0101tu man izbaud\u012bt mirkli, k\u0101 es jums to visu laiku atg\u0101dinu.<\/p>\n

Atg\u0101dinot jums b\u016bt pa\u0161am. Atg\u0101diniet man b\u016bt laim\u012bgam.<\/p>\n

J\u016bs m\u0113\u0123in\u0101tu, lai aicin\u0101jums b\u016bt laim\u012bgam nav t\u0101ds, ka es uzbr\u016bku str\u012bd\u0113ties "vai varb\u016bt es negribu t\u0101da b\u016bt!?".<\/p>\n

[Smaida. Vi\u0146\u0161 dom\u0101s smejas.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

Dievs, Dievs.<\/p>\n

[Pakrata galvu it k\u0101 netic\u012bgi.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u010cau, [cenz\u0113ts].<\/p>\n

atbildi<\/p>\n

[Episk\u0101 partit\u016bra\u00a0\u2014 Fon\u0101 skan Fight for What You Believe, Daniels pamet skatuvi.]<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0100rpus pr\u0101ta,
\nDaniels<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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