Man j\u0101atz\u012bstas. Man ir apnicis. Es nezinu, vai t\u0101 ir \u0101rst\u0113jama slim\u012bba. Un es vi\u0146u sa\u0146\u0113mu jau no savas p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101s m\u012blest\u012bbas.<\/span><\/p>\nT\u0101 ir nepat\u012bkama slim\u012bba. Citi saka, ka vi\u0146i mani nerot\u0101.<\/p>\n
Bet taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 es nezinu, vai es v\u0113los vi\u0146u \u0101rst\u0113t. Tie\u0161i t\u0101 \u2013 gribas atriebties pasaulei un izplat\u012bt to pla\u0161\u0101k! M\u012bl\u0113ties ar pasauli bez prezervat\u012bvu un, ha, haaaaaa!<\/p>\n
K\u0101 es saslimu ar \u0161o slim\u012bbu?<\/p>\n
Mana pirm\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba bija rudmate, kas mani p\u0101rv\u0113rta par narkom\u0101nu.<\/h2>\n
Es vi\u0146u satiku pie st\u016bra, kur Laisv\u0117s aleja krustojas ar Savanori\u0173 prospektu. Blakus \u0113kai, kuras vien\u0101 pus\u0113 atrodas Kau\u0146as rajona tiesa, bet otr\u0101 \u2013 restor\u0101ns Kibina.<\/p>\n
Toreiz es biju kautr\u012bgs b\u0113rns. Pavad\u012bjis dienu, sp\u0113l\u0113jot videosp\u0113les, pirmo reizi sveicu rudmati Facebook - p\u0113c drauga ieraksta par k\u0101du interneta m\u0113mu no 2011. gada.<\/p>\n
\u0160\u012b rudmate bija mana pirm\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba.<\/p>\n
Un caur vi\u0146u es sapratu, ka m\u012bl\u0113t ir sp\u0113c\u012bga narkotika. Tik sp\u0113c\u012bga, ka pat \u010detrus m\u0113ne\u0161us p\u0113c \u0161\u0137ir\u0161an\u0101s j\u016bs v\u0113l\u0113sities atgriezties p\u0113c v\u0113l vienas \u0161\u012bs labest\u012bbas devas.<\/p>\n
Mana otr\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba bija sieviete ar liel\u0101m kr\u016bt\u012bm, kas mani p\u0101rv\u0113rta par te\u0101tra m\u012b\u013cot\u0101ju.<\/h2>\n
Ar\u012b es vi\u0146u satiku Laisves prospekt\u0101. Tikai \u0161oreiz - pie Romo Kalanta memori\u0101la, iepretim Kau\u0146as pa\u0161vald\u012bbas \u0113kai un Kau\u0146as muzik\u0101lajam te\u0101trim.<\/p>\n
Toreiz es v\u0113l biju bail\u012bgs b\u0113rns. Bet p\u0113c tam, kad savas dienas pavad\u012bja nevis ar videosp\u0113l\u0113m, bet gan ar iepaz\u012b\u0161an\u0101s port\u0101liem un semin\u0101riem, k\u0101 p\u0113c iesp\u0113jas vair\u0101k min\u016b\u0161u laik\u0101 uzvilkt p\u0113c iesp\u0113jas vair\u0101k meite\u0146u. Gribas b\u016bt meitene.<\/p>\n
\u0160\u012b liel\u0101 kr\u016btis bija mana otr\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba.<\/p>\n
Un caur vi\u0146u es sapratu, ka te\u0101tris, m\u0101ksla un kult\u016bra nav tik t\u0101lu, k\u0101 var\u0113tu \u0161\u0137ist biju\u0161ajam videosp\u0113\u013cu maniakam un joproj\u0101m interneta m\u0113mu ekspertam. Vi\u0146a man iem\u0101c\u012bja, ka te\u0101tris ir dz\u012bve un dz\u012bve ir te\u0101tris.<\/p>\n
...Un m\u016bsu pazi\u0146as var main\u012bties, mainoties lugu varo\u0146iem. P\u0113c 2 vai 3 m\u0113ne\u0161iem, p\u0113c \u0161\u0137ir\u0161an\u0101s, m\u016bsu lomas main\u012bj\u0101s un m\u0113s k\u013cuv\u0101m par labiem draugiem.<\/p>\n
Mana tre\u0161\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba bija z\u0113n\u012bba, kas mani p\u0101rv\u0113rta par ce\u013cot\u0101ju.<\/h2>\n
Es vi\u0146u satiku Var\u0113nas rajon\u0101 teko\u0161aj\u0101 Lolas up\u0113. Tad es ar draugu baru peld\u0113jos pa \u0161o upi, un puicisk\u0101 blond\u012bne iek\u0101pa man\u0101 kajak\u0101.<\/p>\n
Toreiz es biju drosm\u012bg\u0101ks b\u0113rns. Biju diezgan apmierin\u0101ta ar dz\u012bvi, kad s\u0101ku rakst\u012bt, s\u0101ku saprast, ka meite\u0146u \u010dakar\u0113\u0161ana ir k\u0101 t\u0101rpu audz\u0113\u0161ana - nevajag censties, vienk\u0101r\u0161i \u013cauj meiten\u0113m (un t\u0101rpiem) b\u016bt meiten\u0113m (vai t\u0101rpiem).<\/p>\n
\u0160is tievs, mazais, smiekl\u012bgais b\u0113rns bija mana tre\u0161\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba.<\/p>\n
Un caur vi\u0146u es sapratu, ka ce\u013co\u0161ana, eksperiment\u0113\u0161ana, iepaz\u012b\u0161an\u0101s ar meiteni, kura dz\u012bvo Var\u0113n\u0101 (ja tu pats dz\u012bvo Kau\u0146\u0101), vai nejau\u0161a do\u0161an\u0101s uz Turciju - t\u0101s ir jautras dz\u012bves da\u013cas. Caur vi\u0146u sapratu, ka varu piedz\u012bvot tik daudz br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgu piedz\u012bvojumu ne tikai interneta forumos un Facebook sien\u0101s!<\/p>\n
...Un v\u0113l - ka da\u017ereiz m\u0113s vienk\u0101r\u0161i run\u0101jam da\u017e\u0101d\u0101s m\u012blest\u012bbas valod\u0101s.<\/p>\n
Mana sest\u0101 m\u012blest\u012bba bija neatkar\u012bga, kas mani dar\u012bja laim\u012bgu.<\/h2>\n
Es vi\u0146u satiku Kau\u0146as dzelzce\u013ca stacij\u0101. Vi\u0146a atbrauca no Vi\u013c\u0146as nakts vid\u016b mani sagaid\u012bt, un m\u0113s visu nakti var\u0113j\u0101m klaus\u012bties elektronisko m\u016bziku, jokot par gov\u012bm un iez\u012bm\u0113t Daniela dz\u012bvi, skat\u012bties multenes un \u0113st saldo \u0161okol\u0101di.<\/p>\n
Toreiz es biju gandr\u012bz es pati. Paties\u012bb\u0101 tas notika pavisam nesen. Biju s\u0101kusi saprast, ka dz\u012bve ir dz\u012bve un vajag tikai atp\u016bsties: nauda, sasniegumi \u2013 tas viss n\u0101k pat nem\u0113\u0123inot.<\/p>\n
\u0160\u012b dred\u0101, caurdurt\u0101, plat\u0101m ac\u012bm sieviete bija mana sest\u0101.<\/p>\n
Un caur vi\u0146u es sapratu, ka var izbaud\u012bt pat vismaz\u0101k\u0101s lietas. \u0160\u012b dz\u012bve ir visilg\u0101k\u0101 pieredze, kas mums ir, t\u0101p\u0113c m\u0113s var\u0113tu ar\u012b atp\u016bsties un vienk\u0101r\u0161i sp\u0113l\u0113ties - skat\u012bties d\u012bvainas filmas, apmekl\u0113t ska\u013cus klubus, dzert kafiju nakts vid\u016b vai pavad\u012bt laiku ar svar\u012bgiem cilv\u0113kiem.<\/p>\n
Man ir apnicis.<\/h2>\n
Es saslimu ar slim\u012bbu, kas man\u012b piedzima gandr\u012bz pirms 6 gadiem - 2011. gada pavasara beig\u0101s. Kas man\u012b att\u012bst\u012bj\u0101s un auga.<\/p>\n
Kols piedzima ar hiperpozitivit\u0101ti, ko citi nesaprot.<\/p>\n
K\u0101p\u0113c man b\u016btu skumt, kad notiek kaut kas slikts?
\nNo t\u0101 var m\u0101c\u012bties.<\/p>\n
Un var b\u016bt laim\u012bgs, atceroties tos br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgos piedz\u012bvojumus, ko piedz\u012bvoju.
\nAtceroties ce\u013cojumu, ko varat doties ar\u012b j\u016bs.<\/p>\n
Bet vai \u013causi sev slimot?<\/p>\n
Vai uzs\u0101ksi attiec\u012bbas, kas aizved\u012bs tevi nezin\u0101maj\u0101?<\/p>\n
Vai esi paman\u012bjis, ka pozitivit\u0101tes v\u012bruss var\u0113tu b\u016bt iedz\u012bvojies tav\u0101s zarn\u0101s?
\n...Un ka vajag tikai skat\u012bties uz dz\u012bvi k\u0101 uz piedz\u012bvojumu un izbaud\u012bt to?<\/p>\n
Cik tev gadu? 17? 27? 57?<\/p>\n
Es jaut\u0101ju, jo tas nav \u012bsti svar\u012bgi. Tas nav svar\u012bgi. Izbaudi notiku\u0161\u0101s lietas. Un ticiet man, tie atk\u0101rtosies. Tikai lab\u0101k.<\/p>\n
slims,
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