{"id":1102,"date":"2016-12-05T07:41:54","date_gmt":"2016-12-05T05:41:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=1102"},"modified":"2021-09-25T14:03:31","modified_gmt":"2021-09-25T11:03:31","slug":"kas-as-esu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2016\/kas-es-esmu\/","title":{"rendered":"Daniels: Kas es esmu?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: 205 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: 618<\/b>.<\/p>\n

Sveiki, mani sauc Daniels. \u2026Un es joproj\u0101m mekl\u0113ju, kas es esmu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kas es esmu?<\/p>\n

Sasod\u012bts.<\/p>\n

\u0160ie jaut\u0101jumi ir griezu\u0161ies man\u0101 pr\u0101t\u0101, iesp\u0113jams, kop\u0161 br\u012b\u017ea, kad es ieguvu savu izpratni par cilv\u0113ku. Cik esmu dzird\u0113jis, tas notiek ap sesto vai sept\u012bto dz\u012bves gadu. Varb\u016bt es k\u013c\u016bdos, bet mana galva sniedz \u0161o inform\u0101ciju.<\/p>\n

ES esmu puisis.<\/strong> Cilv\u0113ks. Es vismaz piedzimu. Un es sevi par t\u0101du uzskatu vismaz. Un man starp k\u0101j\u0101m ir ier\u012bce, kas var pacelt manu galvu, kad s\u0101ku dom\u0101t par meiten\u0113m. Vismaz.<\/p>\n

Es neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, kad j\u016bs varat uzskat\u012bt sevi par v\u012brieti. Es joproj\u0101m mekl\u0113ju atbildi uz \u0161o jaut\u0101jumu, t\u0101pat k\u0101 uz daudziem citiem jaut\u0101jumiem.<\/p>\n

"Cilv\u0113ks dara to, kas v\u012brietim j\u0101dara," saka sens teiciens. Un es pie t\u0101 palieku - es daru to, kas ir j\u0101dara v\u012brietim, tas ir man - es parasti aizmirstu par to, kas padara v\u012brieti v\u012bri\u0161\u0137\u012bgu un r\u012bkojos t\u0101, k\u0101, manupr\u0101t, vajadz\u0113tu r\u012bkoties v\u012brietim.<\/p>\n

Es neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, vai tas, ko es daru bie\u017ei, ir v\u012bri\u0161\u0137\u012bgs. Bet man tas nav svar\u012bgi \u2013 es esmu v\u012brietis un daru, ko gribu. Man ir t\u0101das ties\u012bbas, vai ne?<\/p>\n

Esmu dzimis Lietuv\u0101,<\/strong> otraj\u0101 liel\u0101kaj\u0101 pils\u0113t\u0101 - Kau\u0146\u0101, iesp\u0113jams, lemta dz\u012bvot otraj\u0101 viet\u0101.<\/p>\n

Bet tas nav kaut kas, kas man nepat\u012bk. Glu\u017ei otr\u0101di, man pa\u0161am bie\u017ei nepat\u012bk b\u016bt pirmaj\u0101 viet\u0101. J\u0101, ir jautri b\u016bt lab\u0101kajam no visiem, bet ar lieliem pan\u0101kumiem rodas atkar\u012bba. Vai p\u0113c pirm\u0101s vietas izc\u012bn\u012b\u0161anas es to saglab\u0101\u0161u ar\u012b n\u0101kamgad? Ja ne? Kur\u0101 konkurs\u0101 man tagad laim\u0113t pirmo vietu? Un ko dar\u012bt t\u0101l\u0101k p\u0113c uzvaras?<\/p>\n

Man nekad nav patikusi atkar\u012bba.<\/p>\n

Es vienm\u0113r esmu bijis tas, ko da\u017ei no maniem tuv\u0101kajiem draugiem ir raksturoju\u0161i k\u0101 "neatkar\u012bgu". Man pat\u012bk br\u012bv\u012bba dar\u012bt to, ko v\u0113los. Un, ja man nav \u0161\u012bs br\u012bv\u012bbas, es to radu.<\/p>\n

B\u016bt pirmajam at\u0146emtu br\u012bv\u012bbu. B\u016bt l\u012bderim, uz kuru visi raug\u0101s, at\u0146emtu br\u012bv\u012bbu dar\u012bt lietas, kuras vairums cilv\u0113ku uzskata, ka l\u012bderim nevajadz\u0113tu dar\u012bt.<\/p>\n

N\u0113, es neesmu vad\u012bt\u0101js. T\u0101 viet\u0101 man ir daudz jautr\u0101k b\u016bt vad\u012bt\u0101ja lab\u0101 (vai kreis\u0101, ja vi\u0146\u0161 ir kreilis) roka. B\u016bt tam, kas konsult\u0113, pal\u012bdz un salabo visu, ko prezidenta kungs nevar salabot. Es sevi izt\u0113lojos k\u0101 kaut k\u0101du premjerministru. Tikai varb\u016bt nedaudz maz\u0101k redzams - piem\u0113ram, k\u0101ds diktatora deput\u0101ts. Galu gal\u0101 ar\u012b t\u0101di ir, bet par tiem dzird v\u0113l maz\u0101k.<\/p>\n

Es neesmu no tiem, kas kautr\u0113jas no publicit\u0101tes.<\/strong> Dievs, n\u0113. Varb\u016bt t\u0101p\u0113c es s\u0101ku rakst\u012bt Cloud.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0160eit,\u201d es saku savam iedom\u0101tajam las\u012bt\u0101jam, \u201ces tev iem\u0101c\u012b\u0161u to, ko zinu, es tev par\u0101d\u012b\u0161u da\u013cu no sevis, par kuru neviens nekad nav dom\u0101jis, ka tur ir. k\u013c\u016bt par manu draugu Un es tev pal\u012bdz\u0113\u0161u."<\/p>\n

T\u0101tad, es esmu v\u012brietis. Un man pat\u012bk meitenes.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mana gaume, tiesa, ir nedaudz neparasta. Tas ir, iesp\u0113jams, nedaudz nepopul\u0101ri. Blond\u012bne ar liel\u0101m kr\u016bt\u012bm? Nekad nav vilkta. Gudras, bri\u013c\u013cu brunetes? Kaut kas lab\u0101ks, bet tom\u0113r ne tas pats. Sarkanie ball\u012b\u0161u lauvas? Lab\u0101k.<\/p>\n

\u2026Meitenes ar \u012bsiem matiem, \u0123\u0113rbu\u0161\u0101s spilgtas kr\u0101sas dr\u0113b\u0113s, drosm\u012bgas un varb\u016bt pat nedaudz t\u012b\u010dainas (kalsnas, sportiskas, spont\u0101nas)?<\/p>\n

Tas ir tas par ko es run\u0101ju.<\/p>\n

Tagad sakiet - vai ir daudz t\u0101du meite\u0146u, kuras ieder\u0113tos p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101 kategorij\u0101, ko angliski sauc par Tomboys? Nedaudz. Un ieraugot t\u0101das meitenes man uzreiz iepat\u012bkas. Dabiski. Zini, varb\u016bt mani g\u0113ni saka: "N\u0101c, Daniel!" Aps\u0113klot to sievieti!" Un j\u0101, \u0161ie g\u0113ni ir nejauki seksisti.<\/p>\n

K\u0101p\u0113c tie\u0161i t\u0101das meitenes?<\/strong> K\u0101p\u0113c ir svar\u012bgi b\u016bt spilgtam un drosm\u012bgam?<\/p>\n

ES nezinu. Varb\u016bt tas ir saist\u012bts ar faktu, ka es nekad neesmu bijis drosm\u012bg\u0101kais puisis pasaul\u0113. Labi, varb\u016bt p\u0113c da\u017eiem izaicin\u0101jumiem un pieredzes k\u013cuva lab\u0101k, ta\u010du liel\u0101ko dz\u012bves da\u013cu, l\u012bdz satiku savu pirmo draudzeni tie\u0161i p\u0113c 19 gadu vecuma, es nebiju \u012bpa\u0161i drosm\u012bga.<\/p>\n

Varb\u016bt es pat tagad neesmu. Var b\u016bt. Nezinu, par g\u013c\u0113vuli mani vairs neviens nesauc. Bet da\u017ereiz man ir bail.\u00a0Es baidos pateikt meitenei, ka es vi\u0146u m\u012blu.<\/a> Jo es nev\u0113los vi\u0146u garlaikot vai baid\u012bt, vai pievilt sevi n\u0101kotn\u0113.<\/p>\n

...Un man bija daudz citu pieredzi.<\/p>\n

es esmu viens kuriem nauda nav \u012bpa\u0161i svar\u012bga.\u00a0<\/strong>Kam vissvar\u012bg\u0101kais ir b\u016bt laim\u012bgam. Vissvar\u012bg\u0101kais ir b\u016bt br\u012bvam. Vissvar\u012bg\u0101kais ir m\u012bl\u0113t un b\u016bt m\u012bl\u0113tam.<\/p>\n

Manas vienk\u0101r\u0161\u0101s v\u0113lmes. Un labi, ka vismaz da\u017ei no tiem gandr\u012bz vienm\u0113r piepild\u0101s.<\/p>\n

Un es joproj\u0101m neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, kas es esmu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tikai man j\u0101b\u016bt Danielam.<\/p>\n

Jauki satikt!<\/p>\n

jaut\u0101jot,
\nDaniels<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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