{"id":1096,"date":"2016-12-09T19:42:04","date_gmt":"2016-12-09T17:42:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=1096"},"modified":"2021-07-06T22:14:42","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T19:14:42","slug":"man-patinka-tau-rasyti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/2016\/man-patik-tavs-raksts\/","title":{"rendered":"<i>[M\u012blest\u012bbas v\u0113stule]<\/i> Man pat\u012bk tev rakst\u012bt, esmu apreibis un m\u012blu tevi"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">213 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>825<\/b>.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\"><span style=\"font-size: 1.15em;\">Es j\u016btos tik miegains. Es tikko gandr\u012bz aizmigu uz mirkli gult\u0101!<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">\u0160odien tik\u0161an\u0101s ar 16\u00a0br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgiem cilv\u0113kiem Junk Food Caffe (ve\u0123et\u0101r\u0101 kafejn\u012bc\u0101-b\u0101r\u0101-m\u0101kslas galerij\u0101, kas jums, iesp\u0113jams, patiktu) bija \u013coti jautra. Bet tom\u0113r acis asaro un domas kr\u012bt no galvas.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 es v\u0113los uzrakst\u012bt \u0161odienas v\u0101rdus. Es gribu rakst\u012bt. Es visu dienu par to sap\u0146oju.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">K\u0101p\u0113c man tik \u013coti patika rakst\u012bt? Vai tas ir tevis d\u0113\u013c?<\/p>\n<p>Nu, nav nek\u0101das at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bbas. \u0160obr\u012bd es gribu rakst\u012bt. Un to es daru. Ceru, ka jums joproj\u0101m pat\u012bk las\u012bt. Un j\u016bs to dar\u0101t.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un ja n\u0113, tad vismaz paldies, ka iedvesmoji.<\/p>\n<p>Es j\u016btos d\u012bvaini rakstot \u0161o. Man liekas, ka esmu nepr\u0101t\u012bgi iem\u012bl\u0113jusies un iem\u012bl\u0113jusies k\u0101 dz\u0113r\u0101js. Bet varb\u016bt tie\u0161i t\u0101 mani ietekm\u0113 t\u0101 trak\u0101 v\u0113lme krist un sap\u0146ot.<\/p>\n<p>Vai zin\u0101j\u0101t, ka miega tr\u016bkums var \u0101tri ietekm\u0113t j\u016bs k\u0101 gl\u0101zi vai divas alus? Domu l\u0113k\u0161ana, traka atv\u0113rt\u012bba un dezorient\u0101cija ir t\u0101 sekas.<\/p>\n<p>Bet pala. Es zaud\u0113ju pr\u0101tu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Ah ah.<br \/>\nEs j\u016btu, ka es k\u016bstu.<br \/>\nP\u0101r\u0101k \u0101tri.<\/p>\n<p>P\u0101r\u0101k \u0101tri, Daniel.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Nav vesel\u012bgi.<\/p>\n<p>Past\u0101sti man, vai mani sap\u0146i piepild\u012bsies?<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Vai viss \u0161is laiks pirms Ziemassv\u0113tkiem vi\u0146us nogalin\u0101s?<\/p>\n<p>Katru dienu es virzos tuv\u0101k. Bet kas?<\/p>\n<p>Man\u0101s aus\u012bs... Nu, labi, man\u0101s austi\u0146\u0101s skan Hungry Ghosts dziesma &quot;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=4PXMs8KwpDc\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Es par tevi vairs nedom\u0101ju, bet vienalga par tevi nedom\u0101ju&quot;<\/a>... es nesaprotu, ko noz\u012bm\u0113 v\u0101rds, jo esmu tik miegains. Bet man pat\u012bk tas, ko es dzirdu. Man pat\u012bk.<\/p>\n<p><iframe title=\"Izsalku\u0161ie spoki\u00a0\u2014 es par jums vairs nedom\u0101ju, ta\u010du tik un t\u0101 es par jums nedom\u0101ju\" width=\"1050\" height=\"788\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/kS9SUmAyKWM?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>Es s\u0101ku rakst\u012bt to, ko rakst\u012bju jums k\u0101 vienk\u0101r\u0161u zi\u0146ojumu. Tagad es redzu, ka tas ir papla\u0161in\u0101jies par kaut ko vair\u0101k. Kas ir v\u0113stule? Domu pakete? Psiho-pasta s\u016bt\u012bjums, k\u0101 to nosauktu zin\u0101tnisk\u0101s fantastikas rakstnieki?<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Es s\u0101ku rakst\u012bt \u0161o k\u0101 zi\u0146ojumu. Un es pabeidzu ar domu straumi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Atv\u0113rt.<br \/>\nEs neredi\u0123\u0113tu.<br \/>\nEs to nelabotu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Nesmar\u017eota, sl\u0113pjot 16. gadsimta Par\u012bzes ielu nepat\u012bkamo smaku.<\/p>\n<p>\u2026Vai esat las\u012bjis Balto Vantu? Vai ar\u012b piedal\u012bjies k\u0101d\u0101 izr\u0101d\u0113? Es redz\u0113ju \u0161o lugu pirms diviem gadiem.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Nu, labi, es meloju - esmu to redz\u0113jis \u010detras reizes.<\/p>\n<p>Un to visu beig\u0101s es apsol\u012bju st\u0101vus.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">&quot;Caur cie\u0161an\u0101m uz zvaigzn\u0113m, Gar\u0161va, caur cie\u0161an\u0101m uz zvaigzn\u0113m!&quot;<br \/>\n&quot;Piek\u016bns lidoja cauri za\u013cai birz\u012btei, sita sp\u0101rnus pret sausu egli&quot;...<\/p>\n<p>Nezinu, kur\u0161 sp\u0113l\u0113ja Antana Gar\u0161vas lomu. Tom\u0113r man patika vi\u0146a aktiersp\u0113le. Man patika ainava. Un pats st\u0101sts. Man patika m\u016bzika. Un tikko izremont\u0113t\u0101s liel\u0101s z\u0101les smar\u017eas \u2013 t\u0101 bija pirm\u0101 uzst\u0101\u0161an\u0101s jaunaj\u0101 z\u0101l\u0113. Un v\u0113l tr\u012bs.<\/p>\n<p>Es atceros, ka pirmo reizi, kad es redz\u0113ju lugu, man bija asaras. Kas man nav norm\u0101li.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Otrk\u0101rt, es nebiju es pats.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Tre\u0161o reizi - atk\u0101rtoju lugas fr\u0101zes.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un ceturtaj\u0101 es ap\u0146\u0113mos nekad vairs neiet uz izr\u0101di, jo t\u0101 man tik \u013coti tr\u0101p\u012bja tie\u0161i sird\u012b.<\/p>\n<p>*kostel*<\/p>\n<p>Bet j\u016bs dro\u0161i vien neinteres\u0113 dzird\u0113t par manu pieredzi lug\u0101, vai ne? Galu gal\u0101 tu dz\u012bvo lug\u0101s un te\u0101tr\u012b. Kas tev jauns, vai ne?<\/p>\n<p>*smaida*<\/p>\n<p>Ziniet, tas ir piln\u012bgi \u0101rpus t\u0113mas, bet man pat\u012bk ar jums run\u0101t.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">\u2026Un izbaudot katru mirkli, to darot.<\/p>\n<p>Reiz\u0113m dom\u0101ju - tas ir labi vai slikti, ka es tevi toreiz nosk\u016bpst\u012bju uz sept\u012bt\u0101 (vai dev\u012bt\u0101?) st\u0101va balkona? Vai tas ir labi vai slikti, ka es jums rakstu \u0161\u012bs zi\u0146as un es nev\u0113los j\u016bs aizmirst l\u012bdz decembrim? Labs vai slikts?<\/p>\n<p>*Izmet domas*<\/p>\n<p>Bet tad es atceros tavus v\u0101rdus un tavu aicin\u0101jumu nedom\u0101t. Tava maig\u0101 balss. Un dro\u0161a p\u0101rliec\u012bba, ka k\u013c\u016bs lab\u0101k.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un tad es nedom\u0101ju.<br \/>\nUn tad es to izbaudu.<\/p>\n<p>Katra sazi\u0146as diena ar jums man ir jauna un interesanta. Un ak dievs, man tas pat\u012bk.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">\u201cLatvija \u2013 vislab\u0101k baud\u012bt l\u0113n\u0101m\u201d, sludina Latvijas t\u016brisma veicin\u0101\u0161anas moto.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un es to piel\u0101goju, lai sazin\u0101tos ar jums.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk, ka es tevi v\u0113l nem\u012blu.<br \/>\nMan pat\u012bk, ka ar\u012b tu mani v\u0113l nem\u012bli.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk, ka esmu tevi iem\u012bl\u0113jusi.<br \/>\nMan pat\u012bk, kad tu saki, ka ar\u012b tu esi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk rakst\u012bt. Un iedvesmojies. Ir kam rakst\u012bt. Kur\u0161 las\u012btu. Un atbild\u0113tu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk sap\u0146ot.<br \/>\nMan pat\u012bk dom\u0101t.<br \/>\nMan pat\u012bk rad\u012bt.<br \/>\nMan pat\u012bk d\u0101vin\u0101t d\u0101vanas.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk komunic\u0113t. Katru dienu. Mazliet.<br \/>\nKatru dienu pamaz\u0101m atveriet jaunu savas b\u016bt\u012bbas da\u013cu.<\/p>\n<p>T\u0101 ir k\u0101 sp\u0113le ar puzles gabalu atv\u0113r\u0161anu un l\u012bdz\u012bbu mekl\u0113\u0161anu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Man pat\u012bk.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un, dievs, pat ja m\u0113s saprotam, ka mums ir lab\u0101k nekomunic\u0113t.<br \/>\nJa es vispirms to saprotu. Vai ar\u012b j\u016bs.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Pat tad es dom\u0101ju, ka es b\u016b\u0161u laim\u012bgs.<\/p>\n<p>Jo zini \u2013 vislab\u0101kais ce\u013cojums ir tad, kad tu ce\u013co un izbaudi mirkli. Nevis k\u0101 tad, kad ce\u013co kaut k\u0101da taust\u0101ma m\u0113r\u0137a d\u0113\u013c - tu uz\u0146em vi\u0146u tr\u012bssimt fotogr\u0101fiju... Un tad, k\u0101 film\u0101 par Vasaras dien\u0101m, beig\u0101s aizmirsti.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">\u0160aj\u0101 ce\u013cojum\u0101 es esmu.<br \/>\nKas, es ceru, ietver j\u016bs.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">\u0160is ce\u013cojums man ir p\u0101rsteidzo\u0161s.<br \/>\nUn es ceru, ka vi\u0146a ir t\u0101da ar\u012b jums.<\/p>\n<p>N\u0113, es nel\u016bdzu, lai j\u016bs teiktu, ka vi\u0146a jums ir t\u0101da pati. Ja n\u0113, lai t\u0101 b\u016btu. Bet tikai iedom\u0101ties, ka tu esi tikpat labs k\u0101 es... Pat\u012bkam\u0101k par pat\u012bkamu. Pat\u012bkam\u0101k par domu, ka dr\u012bz l\u0113k\u0161u gult\u0101 un gul\u0113\u0161u m\u012bkstos gultasve\u013cos.<\/p>\n<p>Eh, man dro\u0161i vien bija taisn\u012bba par to, ka miega tr\u016bkums darbojas k\u0101 alkohols. Jo tagad j\u016btos piedz\u0113ries. Nepr\u0101t\u012bgi atv\u0113rts. Un m\u012blo\u0161s.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un Dievs, ja mana atkl\u0101t\u012bba mani nogalin\u0101s\u2026<br \/>\nLai notiek.<br \/>\nVismaz ir jautri t\u0101dam b\u016bt.<\/p>\n<p>Man liekas, ka k\u013c\u016bst gr\u016bti dom\u0101t. Ka jau da\u017eviet esmu teicis vair\u0101k nek\u0101 nepiecie\u0161ams. Viet\u0101m maz\u0101k nek\u0101 nepiecie\u0161ams. J\u016btu, ka tu mani viet\u0101m nesaprat\u012bsi. Un viet\u0101m saprat\u012bsi t\u0101, ka pat sirds s\u0101p\u0113s. M\u0113s nezin\u0101m, kur\u0161 no mums.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Es j\u016btos noguris. Un es j\u016btos laim\u012bga.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Jo es grib\u0113ju rakst\u012bt. Es grib\u0113ju tev uzrakst\u012bt.<br \/>\nEs grib\u0113ju ar tevi parun\u0101t. Un ziniet, ka j\u016bs klaus\u0101ties.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Un \u0161odien es to sasniedzu.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Tagad atlika tikai to nokl\u0101t ar bru\u0123akmeni.<br \/>\nUn aizmigt.<\/p>\n<p>Es zinu, ka tu jau guli, Si.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">Tik saldus sap\u0146us.<\/p>\n<p>Guli silts.<\/p>\n<p>saind\u0113jies<br \/>\n<strong>Daniels<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p style=\"font-size: 0.8em;\">Dienas m\u0113r\u0137is: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/issukis-365\/\">213 v\u0101rdi<\/a>. Rakst\u012bts: <b>825<\/b>.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":14694,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[2,69],"class_list":{"0":"post-1096","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-laiskai","8":"tag-365-tekstai","9":"tag-meile"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1096","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1096"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1096\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14694"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1096"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1096"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1096"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}