Kad s\u0101ku las\u012bt tavu v\u0113stuli, man uzreiz \u0161\u0137ita, ka lab\u0101k sagaid\u012bt ko neticamu.<\/span><\/p>\n\u2026ES lasu. Es nep\u0101rlaidu acis tekstam, bet dz\u0113ru katru j\u016bsu rakst\u012bto v\u0113stuli. Katra zilbe, v\u0101rds, teikums un rindkopa.<\/p>\n
Un ar katru rindkopu mana sirds, nu, viss \u0137ermenis, k\u013cuva karsts.<\/p>\n
Tas bezgal\u012bgais karstums, kas, iesp\u0113jams, n\u0101k tikai tad, kad esi iem\u012bl\u0113jies vai gu\u013c za\u013c\u0101 p\u013cav\u0101 zem vasaras saules stariem. Tiesa, tas, ka s\u0113\u017eu ar savu silto d\u017eemperi, dro\u0161i vien ietekm\u0113ja. Mani vaigi un vaigi, iesp\u0113jams, \u0161obr\u012bd mirdz ro\u017eu ziedlapu spilgti sarkan\u0101 kr\u0101s\u0101. Ja ne gai\u0161\u0101ks.<\/p>\n
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\u2026ES lasu.\u00a0<\/strong>Un es to izbaud\u012bju. <\/strong><\/p>\nAr to saj\u016btu, kas aptver tik reti. Saj\u016bta, p\u0113c kuras tik daudzi cilv\u0113ki tik \u013coti alkst, ka zaud\u0113 pr\u0101tu. Vai es v\u0113l neesmu apmald\u012bjies? Galu gal\u0101 trakie cilv\u0113ki parasti nezina, ka vi\u0146i ir, vai ne?<\/p>\n
Es izbaud\u012bju sevi. Ka tas viss ir \u012bslaic\u012bgi. Galu gal\u0101, lai cik silti man tagad b\u016btu (un tas joproj\u0101m ir!), tas pazud\u012bs. Karstums beigsies. Sirds p\u0101rtrauks sp\u0113l\u0113t vilciena rite\u0146u sl\u012bd\u0113\u0161anas pret slied\u0113m ritm\u0101. Un k\u0101dreiz mums b\u016bs j\u0101\u0161\u0137iras.<\/p>\n
Un j\u0101 - mums B\u016aS j\u0101\u0161\u0137iras. Bet es klus\u012bb\u0101 ceru (es nev\u0113los izklaus\u012bties p\u0113c traka cilv\u0113ka, kuram visa dz\u012bve ir izpl\u0101nota), ka tas notiks tikai ar k\u0101da no mums n\u0101vi. Kaut kad t\u0101l\u0101 n\u0101kotn\u0113. \u013boti t\u0101lu.<\/p>\n
Man tas patiktu. Dro\u0161i vien. Es tevi joproj\u0101m nepaz\u012bstu. Bet, jo vair\u0101k es zinu, jo vair\u0101k g\u016bstu nebeidzamu iedvesmu rakst\u012b\u0161anai, rad\u012b\u0161anai un sap\u0146o\u0161anai.<\/p>\n
Un tas ir br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgi. K\u0101 man pat\u012bk \u0161is st\u0101voklis!<\/p>\n
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\u2026ES lasu.\u00a0Un es klaus\u012bjos tavos v\u0101rdos. J\u016bsu domas J\u016bsu atz\u012b\u0161an\u0101s.<\/strong><\/p>\nEs nezinu, k\u0101 jums pat\u012bk las\u012bt manas v\u0113stules (\u012bpa\u0161i k\u0101 \u0161o), bet lasot j\u016bsu v\u0113stules, j\u016bsu zi\u0146as... \u012apa\u0161i t\u0101s, kas beidzas ar sirsni\u0146\u0101m, v\u0101rdiem "D\u0101rgais", uzruna "D.", pat visvienk\u0101r\u0161\u0101kais mu\u013c\u0137\u012bgs smaidi\u0146\u0161, piem\u0113ram, "( :"\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2026es atz\u012b\u0161os. Katru reizi, kad es tev\u012b iem\u012blos no jauna.<\/p>\n
Nu, labi, es esmu saj\u016bsm\u0101. M\u0113s abi zin\u0101m, ka patiesa m\u012blest\u012bba n\u0101ks tikai v\u0113l\u0101k, vismaz tad, kad es atgriez\u012b\u0161os un m\u0113s var\u0113sim satikties un redz\u0113t viens otra \u012bst\u0101s sejas, nevis t\u0101s, kas rad\u012btas caur burtiem un elektroniskiem ekr\u0101niem, kuru pamat\u0101 ir tr\u012bs kr\u0101sas.<\/p>\n
Bet, zem negaisa, \u0161is v\u0101rds te skan tik spilgti! Tas ir po\u0113tisk\u0101k un... Atv\u0113rt\u0101k. Un b\u016bt atv\u0113rtam\u2026 \u012apa\u0161i ar tevi\u2026 Tas ir tik aizraujo\u0161i! Es nekad neesmu bijis p\u0101r\u0101k atkl\u0101ts puisis. Paties\u012bb\u0101 es biju atv\u0113rta tikai savai pirmajai draudzenei.<\/p>\n
Toreiz, kad es v\u0113l nebiju lutin\u0101ts ar gr\u0101mat\u0101m par meite\u0146u saj\u016bsmu.<\/p>\n
F\u016b. Piek\u0101rts. It k\u0101 meitene b\u016btu kaut kas t\u0101ds, ko var\u0113tu pak\u0101rt skap\u012b, da\u017ereiz iz\u0146emt izst\u0101d\u012b\u0161anai un tad aizmirst!<\/p>\n
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\u2026ES lasu.\u00a0Un jo t\u0101l\u0101k es g\u0101ju, jo vair\u0101k es jutu siltumu.<\/strong><\/p>\nPirmk\u0101rt, tas bija karstums sird\u012b. Tad kr\u016bt\u012bs. Tad vaigos, rok\u0101s... Pat aus\u012bs.
\nS\u0101kum\u0101 es neko nedzird\u0113ju. Tad es sajutu smaidu sav\u0101 sej\u0101... Un es dzird\u0113ju m\u016bziku, kuru m\u0113s m\u012blam klaus\u012bties \u2013 t\u0101du, k\u0101du \u0161odien nos\u016bt\u012bju.<\/p>\n