{"id":2967,"date":"2017-09-17T09:36:38","date_gmt":"2017-09-17T06:36:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/danieliusg.lt\/?p=2967"},"modified":"2021-07-06T21:28:43","modified_gmt":"2021-07-06T18:28:43","slug":"patinas","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/2017\/male\/","title":{"rendered":"Love Letter: I&#039;m probably not an alpha male"},"content":{"rendered":"<aside>Goal of the day: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/issukis-365\/\">2667 words<\/a>. Written: <b>212<\/b>.<\/aside>\n<p>Look at me this moment. It&#039;s me.<\/p>\n<p>Woke up just 20 minutes ago to the noise of yard repairs going on outside. The sun's rays are slowly creeping up on me and making me cringe, and the weird dreams I had last night (or was it this morning?) about Batman and Vilnius must have caused me to wake up in bed, so I woke up with my hair all over my head. Including the moustache.<\/p>\n<p>This is my morning face.<\/p>\n<p>* * *<\/p>\n<p>[Hidden], how's it going?<\/p>\n<p>I started writing this text with the idea of finishing it with why I am not an Alpha male, how emotional, mobile, unwavering and completely clueless I am. Actually, this is the second attempt. The first draft this morning was written exactly 20 minutes after waking up, but now I don't like it anymore, so I tried to rewrite it better.<\/p>\n<p>But the gloomy emotional mood after the dreams of running away, catching some girl with dark eyes, the strange mood of anxiety and break-ups, was gone.<\/p>\n<p>Now, after helping my dad tidy up the sun-soaked yard and installing a new door in the warehouse wall, I feel like half a day has passed. And the sweat that broke out on my forehead during the work has managed to disappear.<\/p>\n<p>Start playing <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=Dyo4tNwNIvQ\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Amelie - La Valse D'Amelie<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>What did you do in the last few days of summer?<\/p>\n<p>What did you feel? What were you worried about? And what were you happy about?<\/p>\n<p>I know this letter is strange. Because it is like this - born in the middle of a text that has lost its mood. But I am interested. What are you alive for? It's been a long time since we've spoken.<\/p>\n<p>They smiled. He sits down on the carpet with his legs folded under him.<\/p>\n<p>I'm here. Listening.<\/p>\n<p>Eyes wide open,<strong><br \/>\n<\/strong><\/p>\n<div id=\"parasas\" class=\"\"><svg viewbox=\"0 0 900 189\" width=\"200\">\n        <path class=\"d-1\" d=\"M67 50L5 172\"\/>\n        <path class=\"d-2\" d=\"M19 152c7 8 30 33 59 32 41-1 76-46 80-100 2-22-6-77-42-79C61 2-1 54 46 76\"\/>\n        <path class=\"a\" d=\"M204 126.9c1.4-6-1-23.7-8.8-23.3-33.2 1-44 50-31 54 11 3 22-10 36-25 2-3 14 9 25 10\"\/>\n        <path class=\"nie\" d=\"M211 157c45-44 65-58 70-54 6 5-16 42-12 45 6 4 47-55 57-49 7 4-7 34 4 47 8 11 20 7 28 1 18-14 28-28 27-22s-5 38 46 16c21-9 22-29 13-36-3-2-16 6-16 16-1 18 14 29 37 28\"\/>\n        <path class=\"t-1\" d=\"M387 80a1 1 0 1 0 2 0 1 1 0 1 0-2 0\"\/>\n        <path class=\"liu\" d=\"M444 184C549 88 546 23 536 23c-19 0-57 74-57 122 0 4 5 13 13 16 5 3 11 2 16 1 6-1 11-6 17-10l39-32c0 6-2 8-3 14-2 7-2 10 1 14l5 4c6 3 14 1 20-1 17-7 26-19 44-29 3-1 8-4 12-2l5 6c4 11 1 16 4 22s13 10 20 8 12-9 13-14l4-13 3-5 6-4 13-5c3-1 6-3 10-8\"\/>\n        <path class=\"t-2\" d=\"M576 85a1 1 0 1 0 2 0 1 1 0 1 0-2 0\"\/>\n        <path class=\"s-1\" d=\"M720 142c8 2 27 3 35-3 6-4-18-36-22-32-3 4-6 19-30 65\"\/>\n        <path class=\"s-2\" d=\"M756 140c4-1 9-4 12-8\"\/><\/svg>\n    <\/div>\n    <noscript><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-content\/themes\/debesyla-uzrasai-child\/inc\/img\/fallback-parasas.png\" alt=\"Daniel\" style=\"top: -2.5em; position: relative;\"><\/noscript>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<aside>Goal of the day: <a style=\"border: none;\" href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/issukis-365\/\">2667 words<\/a>. Written: <b>212<\/b>.<\/aside>\n<p>Look at me this moment. It&#039;s me.<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15146,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[2,69,47],"class_list":{"0":"post-2967","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-laiskai","8":"tag-365-tekstai","9":"tag-meile","10":"tag-santykiai"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2967","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2967"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2967\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/15146"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2967"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2967"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2967"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}