{"id":10484,"date":"2021-10-23T11:50:00","date_gmt":"2021-10-23T08:50:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/?p=10484"},"modified":"2021-07-24T14:52:59","modified_gmt":"2021-07-24T11:52:59","slug":"mylintis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/2021\/loving\/","title":{"rendered":"<i>A year without a relationship:<\/i> What I learned about myself after giving up women for a year"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>A challenge that probably doesn't matter to you at all. Or so I guess. I tried to be alone for a year. Or rather, without the girls who so often caught my eye, my mind, my heart and my cock.<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><strong>Keep in mind:<\/strong> I also consider this challenge a failure. Why? <strong>I just don't know what I got out of it, that's all.<\/strong> It was quite fun, though.<\/p>\n<p>I'm putting the notes here in case they give you ideas and help you.<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<h2>Let me explain.<\/h2>\n<p>Imagine you are a 19-year-old who has spent the last 14 years playing video games. <a href=\"#footnote-1-10484\" id=\"note-1-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">1<\/a> Your hair is greasy, your clothes are dingy and dirty, and the wind is in your head.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">And you are silent, because you have nothing to say to him.<\/p>\n<p>In your spare time, you visit suspicious sites in abundance, <a href=\"#footnote-2-10484\" id=\"note-2-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">2<\/a> watching porn and reading science fiction books. Sometimes you go to school - it's final exams!<\/p>\n<p><strong>One day you meet a girl. <\/strong>Loud, brave, full of strength and ideas, and so beautiful! With everything you can't boast. You ask to go on a date. This is the first girl you've been attracted to in 19 years.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">- I'm sorry,\" she says, \"it's better to just be friends.<\/p>\n<p>You are sad. All these years of playing video games, you haven't got used to playing in a way that makes you know how to lose. This defeat feels like the end of the world. <strong>When you get home, you cry.<\/strong><br \/>\nYou're sitting in front of the internet, looking for \"How do I get out of the friend zone?\".<br \/>\nA month later, you meet another girl. You ask her out too, but this time pretending to be braver, after taking advice from the internet.<\/p>\n<p>She agrees. <strong>And you have one amazing summer. <\/strong>First dates, first hugs, first kisses, first... Things in bed.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">- Oooooh,\" he shouts. But this time it's not the wind, it's the high-pressure blood in your brain. You want more!<\/p>\n<p><strong>However, you break up with your first love. <\/strong>Because... You get tired of building relationships. You're scared. Sincerely. You're so scared of having a relationship that you don't admit it to yourself for six years after the first break-up!<br \/>\nLooking for another girl.<br \/>\nOn Tinder, on dating sites, in clubs and on the streets. <a href=\"#footnote-3-10484\" id=\"note-3-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">3<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Randi. Get excited.<\/p>\n<div class=\"highlight-2\">\n<h3>How to hang a girl easily?<\/h3>\n<ol>\n<li><strong>Create a unique you. <\/strong>Start writing, drawing maps, making art, creative business. Talk about it and share it widely. Live boldly with your challenges and your no-nonsense style.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Be proud of your achievements. <\/strong>Not for the girl, but for others. Show the world what you do! Be a braggart, be a superstar!<\/li>\n<li><strong>Speak unexpectedly. <\/strong>As if you didn't care at all - about politics and the weather, about the arts and her least favourite books.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Ask for a date in a few days. <\/strong>At your favourite Green cafe. <a href=\"#footnote-4-10484\" id=\"note-4-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">4<\/a> You'll still be working there, so you can meet.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Admire it. <\/strong>Watch how her earrings move. Listen to her stories. Breathe the air she exhales.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Come back to your house or hers. <\/strong>No sex! Play board games, have lunch, go your separate ways.<\/li>\n<li><strong>The second time is with sex. <\/strong>The first one, however, was only for reassurance. Just like this whole carnival.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Take a shower. <\/strong>A lot. Often. Every time we meet.<\/li>\n<li><strong>If the relationship is going well, carry on. <\/strong>My longest was 10 months. If you're not doing well, just become friends.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Breathe. <\/strong>Rest for a month. Whatever happens, you will still find your Love.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Get another girl. <\/strong>Now it's different.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/pickup\/\">It's an easy way to hook a girl.<\/a>\u00a0<a href=\"#footnote-5-10484\" id=\"note-5-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">5<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<p>During these <strong>6 <\/strong>for a year, they fall in love:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><strong>The red hair <\/strong>not guilty;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Big Breasted <\/strong>menotyrin;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Travelling<\/strong>, boyish blonde;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Playful <\/strong>children's theatre actress;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Nymphomaniac <\/strong>Fatty;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Funny <\/strong>jewellery artist;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Scientific <\/strong>fiction writer;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Gambling <\/strong>an entrepreneur;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Global <\/strong>as a photographic model;<\/li>\n<li><strong>Family <\/strong>esktremale...<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>...And a few dozen more muses I've known for a short time.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/temos\/laiskai\/\">You write them love letters.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>After our last encounter, after this homely, courageous, once out of the drug swamp, extreme, after her amazing beauty, her life story and all the wonderful time together...<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">...You feel like a stump. Like a decaying autumn stump.<\/p>\n<p>You've just met a woman of the most stunning looks, manner and achievements. But you broke up because your views on Lithuania, morality and the ideal family didn't match.<\/p>\n<p><strong>You ask yourself what is going on. What's going on here?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>You realise that you can no longer trust the internet and its advice. <a href=\"http:\/\/timas.lt\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">You contact psychotherapist Tim Petraitis.<\/a>\u00a0You meet.<\/p>\n<p>Read a book by Brenda Shaeffer <a href=\"http:\/\/psichika.eu\/blog\/kas-tai-meile-ar-priklausomybe\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">\"What is love or addiction?\"<\/a>\u00a0 You realise that all these years the wind has been blowing in your head.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">\u2013 \u016a\u016b\u016b\u016b\u016b, \u2013 spiegia galvos tarpeklius skrod\u017eiantis v\u0117jas.<\/p>\n<p>And you considered this wind as love.<br \/>\nSo you sit and think.<\/p>\n<h2>I need at least one year to be with myself.<\/h2>\n<p>It is ironic that I have given so little time to the person I know best. I've been looking for a date that... Well, you know all that. <a href=\"#footnote-6-10484\" id=\"note-6-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">6<\/a><\/p>\n<p>So\u2026<\/p>\n<ol>\n<li><strong>Some <\/strong>old.<\/li>\n<li>See also <strong>romantic <\/strong>dating.<\/li>\n<li>Exploring <strong>own <\/strong>humanity.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Breathing.<\/strong><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<h3>Here's how I'm doing.<\/h3>\n<ul>\n<li><strong>December: <\/strong>I spent time with a psychotherapist.<\/li>\n<li><strong>January: <\/strong>I realised that I was taking this on.<\/li>\n<li><strong>February: <\/strong>Quiet.<\/li>\n<li><strong>March: <\/strong>Quiet.<\/li>\n<li><strong>April:<\/strong>\u00a0I met a girl. I didn't fall in. I felt happier. <a href=\"#footnote-7-10484\" id=\"note-7-10484\" class=\"footnote-link\">7<\/a><\/li>\n<li><strong>May:<\/strong>\u00a0I watch myself.<\/li>\n<li><strong>June:\u00a0<\/strong>It's calm again.<\/li>\n<li><strong>July:\u00a0<\/strong>Chiki. Summer!<\/li>\n<li><strong>August:\u00a0<\/strong><a href=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/en\/meile\/\">I'm beginning to understand(?) that the point of a relationship is to enjoy, not to take or give. And it is important not to expect.<\/a>\u00a0If I'm off the hook, say so.<\/li>\n<li><strong>September:\u00a0<\/strong>I met a girl.<\/li>\n<li><strong>October:\u00a0<\/strong>Maybe it's not about romance, but about friendship?<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>I'm still trying to understand what is going on. I am still living.<\/p>\n<p>...So that's my challenge for 2017!<\/p>\n<p>And what do you say?\u00a0<strong>What good should I do this year?\u00a0<\/strong>And who would help me find my answers?<\/p>\n<p>confused,<\/p>\n<div id=\"parasas\" class=\"\"><svg viewbox=\"0 0 900 189\" width=\"200\">\n        <path class=\"d-1\" d=\"M67 50L5 172\"\/>\n        <path class=\"d-2\" d=\"M19 152c7 8 30 33 59 32 41-1 76-46 80-100 2-22-6-77-42-79C61 2-1 54 46 76\"\/>\n        <path class=\"a\" d=\"M204 126.9c1.4-6-1-23.7-8.8-23.3-33.2 1-44 50-31 54 11 3 22-10 36-25 2-3 14 9 25 10\"\/>\n        <path class=\"nie\" d=\"M211 157c45-44 65-58 70-54 6 5-16 42-12 45 6 4 47-55 57-49 7 4-7 34 4 47 8 11 20 7 28 1 18-14 28-28 27-22s-5 38 46 16c21-9 22-29 13-36-3-2-16 6-16 16-1 18 14 29 37 28\"\/>\n        <path class=\"t-1\" d=\"M387 80a1 1 0 1 0 2 0 1 1 0 1 0-2 0\"\/>\n        <path class=\"liu\" d=\"M444 184C549 88 546 23 536 23c-19 0-57 74-57 122 0 4 5 13 13 16 5 3 11 2 16 1 6-1 11-6 17-10l39-32c0 6-2 8-3 14-2 7-2 10 1 14l5 4c6 3 14 1 20-1 17-7 26-19 44-29 3-1 8-4 12-2l5 6c4 11 1 16 4 22s13 10 20 8 12-9 13-14l4-13 3-5 6-4 13-5c3-1 6-3 10-8\"\/>\n        <path class=\"t-2\" d=\"M576 85a1 1 0 1 0 2 0 1 1 0 1 0-2 0\"\/>\n        <path class=\"s-1\" d=\"M720 142c8 2 27 3 35-3 6-4-18-36-22-32-3 4-6 19-30 65\"\/>\n        <path class=\"s-2\" d=\"M756 140c4-1 9-4 12-8\"\/><\/svg>\n    <\/div>\n    <noscript><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/debesyla.lt\/uzrasai\/wp-content\/themes\/debesyla-uzrasai-child\/inc\/img\/fallback-parasas.png\" alt=\"Daniel\" style=\"top: -2.5em; position: relative;\"><\/noscript>\n<div class=\"footnotes\"><hr \/><ol><li id=\"footnote-1-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>Runescape, Lineage 2, Silk Road, World of Warcraft and a host of MMORPG, RPG and strategy classics.<a href=\"#note-1-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-1.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-2-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>Like 4chan.<a href=\"#note-2-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-2.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-3-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>You prowl around like a wolf and look around.<a href=\"#note-3-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-3.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-4-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>Kaunas, Laisv\u0117s Avenue.<a href=\"#note-4-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-4.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-5-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>Warning: satire.<a href=\"#note-5-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-5.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-6-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>Hugs, kisses, sex, worries, dreams of family...<a href=\"#note-6-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-6.footnote--><li id=\"footnote-7-10484\" class=\"footnote\"><p>More details at the end of the year.<a href=\"#note-7-10484\" class=\"footnote-return\">&#8617;<\/a><\/p><\/li><!--\/#footnote-7.footnote--><\/ol><\/div><!--\/#footnotes-->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A challenge that probably doesn&#039;t matter to you at all. Or at least that&#039;s what I&#039;m guessing. I tried to be alone for a year. Or rather, without the girls who so often caught my eye, mind, heart and dick. Keep in mind: I also consider this challenge a failure. Why? I just don&#039;t know what I got from him and that&#039;s it. Although it was quite fun. 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